COMPLETE STORY.
PAN.
By Winifred Graham.
(1873-1950)
Summer was a riot of colour and blossom,
and nowhere had the flowers a better
chance than at Little Hemming, a veritable
sun-trap in Surrey.
The Manor House was a quaint red brick
building, surrounded by a wilderness of
garden which stretched to a border of forest
trees. It was just the picturesque setting
which Cecilie Cunningham's delicate beauty
demanded. No wonder that other girls
were jealous of her fresh youthful charm,
and called her a butterfly with no aim in
life beyond that of looking graceful, and
wearing the most enviable clothes.
She knew well enough she was considered
a most helpless being, by more emancipated
women, and for this very reason, though
in no need of money, determined to lay and
turn her artistic leanings into hard cash.
To-day she sat in her pretty pink boudoir,
with flushed cheeks and fast beating heart.
Good Aunt Sarah had actually given her an
order for a picture, just as if she were a
professional painter, suggesting it should
first be sent to an early autumn exhibition.
"I leave the subject entirely to you,"
wrote this encouraging relation. "I should
prefer something fanciful as a perpetual
reminder of your dainty and pretty self."
Having shown the letter to her parents
with rapturous glee, Cecilie was now
sitting in a kind of dream, thinking how best
to fulfil the great work in hand.
Every corner of the garden embodied a
picture. Since her childhood the giant forest
trees, low down by a brook on the
south slope, made her think of fairyland,
where gnomes and wondrous spirits played.
Suddenly she blinked her eyes, wondering
if she were really awake, for standing
framed in the open window, which led to
the terrace, was a slim boyish figure.
Unlike other boys, the personality of this
stranger was weird yet attractive. Poorly
dressed in a thin blue jersey, he appeared
in no way handicapped by the shabby
clothes. His face of great wilfulness, had
large wondering eyes and parted sensitive
lips. He glanced into the room with the
curiosity of some peeping hound, who
expects his entrance to he routed by an
indignant human. There was wonder and
mystery about this boyish form. A cloud
of red gold hair framed his curiously eager
face, his neck was long and thin, and the
outgrown jersey-sleeves showed the
peculiar length of his hands.
As his gaze met Cecilie's the hunted
animal eyes kindled with an expression of
glowing admiration. His stare was that of
open child scrutiny, which unconsciously
flatters and is innocent of offence.
The girl sprang up, and the soft
fluttering of her muslin skirt was light as the
wing of a butterfly on the "Rose du Barri"
carpet.
"Who are you?" she asked kindly,
moving forward. "What do you want
here?"
The boy tossed back his rough, tawny
hair, and a confident smile showed that her
friendly manner had dissipated shyness.
"I was discovering!" he said, in a tone of
intense earnestness. "I ought to have gone,
out by the back door after leaving the eggs
which I brought from mother; you buy her
eggs every week. But I caught sight of all
the colour this side, and I wanted to see.
May I come into this room? May I look at
everything?"
His anxious desire to be admitted puzzled
and rather amused Cecilie.
"Oh, certainly," she replied. "This is my
own little nest. How do you like it?"
He did not answer at first, but, quickly
accepting her invitation, wandered round
the boudoir, his face radiant with silent
ecstasy. He touched some embroidered
cushions with the tip of a quivering finger,
tracing the pattern and narrowing his eyes
as he gazed at the softly blended shades.
He stood on tiptoe to examine the china
which ornamented the high mantelshelf,
then turned with a little gasp to a tall vase
of gigantic poppies with great black hearts,
frowning from their scarlet leaves.
"Of course, you purposely put them there
against a white corner," he said, touching
the long rough stalks,
"because you love
colour, too."
Cecilie was quick enough to realize that
here was a distinct temperament for art
locked up in the soul of this child of the
people. The boy stranger appeared as a
wonderful discovery sent in answer to her
wish. There, in flesh and blood, stood
Aunt Sarah's picture, a boy with the head
of a sprite, and a reedlike figure, which
made her think of dancing daffodils in the
wind. Evidently beautiful objects meant
much to him, bringing a glow to his pale
face, and a light of genius to those piercing
eyes.
"I suppose it is your holiday time now,"
Cecilie said, remembering the village
schools were closed. "Will you come and
sit to me for a picture? You can make
more money that way than by selling
eggs."
The boy's rapturous admiration of the
room could not compare with the evident
satisfaction he felt when closely viewing
the charming Miss Cunningham. Now he
moved slowly round her, as though she
were a piece of rare furniture, and
he a
connoisseur, there to examine its worth
and beauty.
"Of course I'll come," he cried, "but
not because of the money, though that is
what mother wants more than anything.
I shall come here, shan't I, to this lovely
place? I shall be able to see the colours
every day."
"Sit down," said Cecilie. "I must think
the picture out."
She flung herself into a low chair, and
the boy obediently seated himself cross-legged
on a large white hearthrug, by the
flower-filled grate. He still stared at her,
but now she paid no heed to the enquiring
eyes as she continued:
"I will paint the wild wooded part of
the garden, and you shall be Pan piping
in an enchanted forest. You will be
dressed in a leopard skin garment, and of
course you must have goat's feet. There
is a lovely old stump which shall make you
a throne. You will be the personification
of deity in creation. The character of
'Blameless Pan' indicates the immense
variety of created things. My picture
shall bear Milton's words from 'Paradise
Lost.'
'Universal Pan,
Knit with the Graces of the Hours in
dance,
Led on the eternal Spring.'
I must try and paint all the flowers round
you dancing in motion, even the trees
should seem to move a little. Atmosphere
is the hardest part, but now I am a
professional I must try and overcome
difficulties. Only try and inspire, my brash,
for I am sure you will make an enthusiastic
model."
The boy asked her many questions about
the subject before leaving. Had Pan ever
really lived, and must she kill a goat to
get the feet? Might the flowers be made
to look something like people, for all
flowers had people's faces, really. Then
she must please not forget the sunbeams,
they would have to dance too. Heaps and
heaps of colour would be wanted for her
palette, if she meant to copy summer in
the garden.
"Oh!" remarked Cecilie in some
surprise, "then you know something about
painting, you have ideas too on the
making of a picture."
"There was an artist here in the spring
called Mr. Hayden," replied the boy, his
voice quivering suddenly, while his eyes
blinked back unmistakable tears. "I used
to follow him about and watch him work.
His picture was in the Academy, he sent
me a photograph of it afterwards."
Before they parted Cecilie learnt that
her model's name was Dick Wright, and
his invalid mother made a scanty living
out of her chicken farm. Dick had the
care of the fowls and the carrying round
of the eggs; in fact, he seemed to do
everything for the ailing woman, who had been
a widow many years.
As Cecilie watched him go she noted
his progress through the garden with
interest. At every step he paused as though
enchanted, standing in rapt silence by some
blazing border of midsummer bloom, feasting
his eyes on its glory, and inhaling the
fragrance.
At lunch she casually remarked she had
engaged a model, having now thought out
a scheme for her picture. She would have
to send for the required canvas, and must
order the boy's dress from a theatrical
costumier.
Her father, who dearly loved his only
child, laughed softly as she left the room.
"I am glad I put Sarah up to ordering
that picture," he said. "It will keep
Cecilie happy till Roderick comes home. I
was afraid she would fret for him. Of
course, I don't expect her to produce
anything but an amateurish daub. Still, I
do believe in girls being occupied; keeps
them out of mischief; our little Cecilie is
only made to play at work!"
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Dick's days were full of joy now. He
looked upon Miss Cunningham as some
radiant vision from another world, the
world of riches and splendour, which he
had never known.
She declined to let him see her canvas
until the finishing touches had been given
to this arduous task. Only, while working,
she talked of the picture, describing her
progress to the sitter, and whetting his
appetite for a sight of this fairy scene.
Dick loved his leopard's skin garments,
and the beauty of the spot where the brook
sang. In imagination he was verily Pan,
a part of the elements, seldom losing the
vivid expression of the Piper's face, or the
keen tension of a body supposed to be half
animal, half man.
Sometimes he talked of Mr. Hayden's
radiant canvas, which portrayed the
Surrey landscape. Always Dick's
reminiscences of the artist were tinged with
sadness, and he would break off quickly,
becoming suddenly reserved. Cecilie often
forgot her model was just a village boy,
and told this weird Pan quite intimate
details of her own life.
One day she spoke of her coming
marriage with Roderick Morel.
"I shall live in London then," she said.
"I must make him provide me with a
beautiful studio, and I may continue my work,
and try to think I am still in the country."
Pan, who seldom moved, shuffled his feet
uneasily, and his face grew woe-begone,
unlike the sprite of growing happiness.
"The nice people always go away," he
said, "they never stay at 'Little Hemming.'
I might have known you would go, too, like
Mr. Hayden. Mother says we must always
expect disappointments. I thought that was
only because her life is so unhappy. I
hoped mine might be different: but of
course, she was right."
Cecilie smiled away his dreary
forebodings.
"You are too young for a pessimist," she
said. "Some day you will go to London
yourself, when you are old like me."
That morning the boy went sadly home
to tell his mother she had called him a
"pest," and soon she would go away, and
make another disappointment.
At last the looked-for date arrived, when
the young artist told her model he might
view the work in its completion. The
weather was absolutely symbolical of the
picture's intention. A soft warm breeze
stirred the boughs overhead, flowers
nodded in the grass, though summer had
boldly advanced, there was something of
spring in the playful wind.
The boy was absolutely trembling with
excitement, when presently Mies Cunningham
stepped back, glanced at him
invitingly, and cried in a joyful voice:
"Come and see!"
Pan slid from the rugged stump, catching
his breath, conscious that his pulses beat
wildly like fluttering birds in cruel cages.
He had dreamt of this wonderful colour
creation that Cecilie was to give to the
world, feverishly watching her face
brighten and glow as she painted. The
pretty, pensive attitudes in which she
stood, when contemplating her work, were
burnt in on his brain vital impressions of
an enchanted being. She deemed to him
surrounded by magic charms, he liked to
think Pan's sprites guided her hand.
With a little quiver he darted across the
grass whitened by daisies, to find himself
face to face with a canvas whose back, had
become so familiar from its poise on
Cecilie's easel.
He spoke no word at first, but just stood
before the painting rigid and still, his eyes
extended to their widest, his teeth set,
and his fists clenched. Then a sudden
sound broke from his lips like a gasping
sob, and he flung back his head as if to
toss aside the rolling tears which splashed
to his cheeks.
"Oh, Dick," half whispered Cecilie,
"don't you don't you like it?"
He moved away a few steps as he had
often seen Mr. Hayden move, though his
vision was still clouded by the telltale
moisture.
"What's the matter with the trees?" he
gasped. "You said they would rock and
sing, and they are just dull pieces of paint:
they don't move at all. The flowers, too,
were to have fairy faces; we wanted them
to hear the music, didn't we, since Pan
played, for all he was worth? Even Pan
is dead, his face is so wooden. Did mine
look like that? You can't mean the
picture is finished? You are playing some
cruel joke on me!"
Cecilie's blood, ran cold. Carried away
by a fervour of purpose, she had never
noticed till this moment that her canvas
was lifeless, her colouring hard and crude,
while Pan's face lacked any expression
beyond that of a wooden image.
"Oh! Dick, you are right," she
murmured in painful accents "what's wrong
with the trees?"
She turned her eyes to their living
representatives, as if those forest kings could
answer her appeal and the boy's despairing
question. They only rocked their
boughs jeeringly, and laughed in the wind.
All Nature seemed mocking now at this
raw amateur. Dick's passionate tears had
given her the key to her own failure.
Cecilie thought no more of Aunt Sarah,
or the forthcoming exhibition; she was only
conscious of her quivering model's misery
and disappointment, mingled with her own
shame.
"Perhaps," she ventured to remark,
"you could suggest something, Dick, to
improve the picture."
She gave him the lead diffidently, little
guessing how quickly he would snatch at
those desultory words. In a moment the
old keen look returned to the boy's
wonderfully bright eyes. To her amazement
he accepted her suggestion as if it were an
invitation to personal action.
"Of course it could be improved," he
cried joyously, seizing up her palette, and
mixing the colours with a free, familiar
hand the hand which always appeared so
uncannily long and expressive.
In speechless surprise, Cecilie watched
him dart at the canvas, after quickly
collecting the brushes that suited his taste.
With bold, impressionist strokes, he
appeared to her almost to fling the colour on
those stereotyped boughs. As he did so,
they gradually took to themselves form,
movement, life! They were no longer
mere picture trees, his quick work revivified
them, creating atmosphere. He was
verily "Pan the Life Giver," while Cecilie
gazed, in wonder at the supple form in its
leopard's skin drapery, so intent on the
canvas she called her own.
"When did you learn to paint?" she
asked curiously. "Why, Dick, you are a
perfect genius!"
"That is what the other painter said,"
he replied simply, as he turned his attention
to Cecilie's grass and flowers. "Mr.
Hayden gave me lessons every day. Shall
I paint in my face, too? Fetch me a looking
glass; I want to make it smile. I
think I know the way."
Still dazed with surprise, the girl ran to
her boudoir, and brought back a large
silver-framed mirror which stood on the
piano. To see Dick work almost
convinced her that reincarnation was possible.
The boy had the soul of a Raphael.
Glorious sunlight, poetic feeling crept into the
picture over which he had wept. His work
changed him from a humble admirer into
one who commanded. He bade her hold
up the glass that he might closely examine
his features, and impress their wonderful
reflection on the ground she had prepared.
A little twist of the lips, a mere flick of
paint, pursed them up into the real piping
attitude. A dash of light, and a dark
shadow beneath the eyes; gave them
miraculous vitality. Still breathing quickly,
he changed the lank dead hair into a living
mass of waving gold.
"That's just what it wanted, isn't it?"
he cried, and the little laugh of glee that
broke from his lips was light as the
rippling of the brook at their feet.
"Yes, indeed," answered Cecilie with
sigh, "but now it is not my picture, the
credit must all be yours."
Dick clutched her sleeve in a frenzy of
agitation. She could feel the trembling
of those weird magnetic fingers, as he
stamped his foot in rebellion.
"No! no! no!" he cried. "I did it for
you, only for you. We mustn't tell a soul.
I've wanted to try and show my gratitude
for all these happy days, oh! and for the
money as well, which meant so much to
mother. You see, it was the disappointment
in the spring, which made her worse.
Mr. Hayden told her, though I was so
young, I could make my fortune. He
promised to send me to London after the
Royal Academy was opened, and she was
to come too. He said I should, work with
him in his studio; he called me 'his
Michael Angelo, his discovery, his adopted
son.' When the photograph came of his
big picture he wrote he was looking out
rooms for us, and three days afterwards
we read of his sudden death, in the papers.
Mother got ever so much, worse after that,
and I felt I never wanted to paint again, or
see another picture. It was only after I
came into your garden one morning I
began to think of beautiful colours again.
You know what mother said about
disappointments; please, please don't disappoint
me now. Let me give you this little
bit of work, for I feel just as if Mr. Hayden
were here telling me what to do."
Cecilie realised she was in the throes of
a strong temptation. Of course, they were
right, these people who called her a
butterfly, and the critics who warned her she
had better leave work alone. Here was a
chance of surprising her parents, and
enchanting Aunt Sarah, at the same time
gratifying a child's earnest request.
"Poor little Dick!" she murmured. "Fate
was very hard, but though you have lost
one friend, try and feel you have found
another in me. If I allow this picture to
pass as my own, I am not going to let the
world lose a genius. When I am married,
perhaps, I can make up to you for Mr.
Hayden's loss."
Dick had gone back to the canvas again,
to add a fresh glow of glory to the sky.
"It's colour," he said, "colour that makes
life. Perhaps your picture will be
exhibited after all. That is the kind of sky
Mr. Hayden painted."
When "Pan" danced home the richer for
his love and service, Cecilie bore her
picture with outward triumph to the parents
who had been promised a sight of it that
day. Inwardly her heart ached with a
dull sense of failure, while their wondering
praise, and admiring comments, were so
many stabs lacerating her sensitive spirit.
"I must say," declared Mr. Cunningham,
"I had no idea Cecilie's work would
show so much temperament and feeling.
Such art as here should command a
market. Roderick really thinks he is marrying
a really clever artist."
Mrs. Cunningham conventionally replied
that marriage was supposed to kill genius,
and the painting of pictures would soon be
forgotten when
trousseau-ing
days began, to
be followed by household cares, and the
arduous task of furnishing.
Together the parents marvelled at
Cecilie's nature is one that can never be
achievement.
"Most girls," they concluded, "would be
justly proud of such a canvas, but
Cecilie's nature is one that can never be
spoilt by success."
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Summer had faded to the crimson and
gold of early autumn. The old Manor
House garden was a blaze of russet foliage,
when Roderick Morel returned from Nigeria.
Hardly had he entered the house,
than Cecilie's parents poured into his ears
the news of his fiancee's
artistic triumph.
They told of a poetical picture alive with
atmosphere and feeling, which had taken
front place in an autumn exhibition,
receiving warm approbation from London
critics. It bore that pleasing word "sold"
in the corner of the frame, and was now on
view for Roderick's inspection at Aunt
Sarah's town house.
During the lovers' separation, Roderick
too had touched the golden shore of
success. Though Mr. Cunningham was
himself a rich man, it pleased him to know
his daughter was to marry wealth.
Roderick and Cecilie thought little of such
worldly matters, as they wandered out
alone to the solitude which reigned among
the forest trees by the brook. Here they
had bade each other good-bye, and on the
very same spot he clasped her once more to
his heart, pressing the quivering lips in a
long passionate embrace.
"Darling," he whispered, "you don't
know what it means to hold you again, and
hear your voice. It all looks so dream-like
here, that I am afraid you will fade as
those tantalizing visions which haunted me
on my journey. Never a night passed but
I came to you in spirit. All day the people
around me were the phantoms, and the
memory of you was the real presence. Your
sweetness hung about me irresistibly. If I
had come back to find you changed, I
think it would have been my death blow.
Yet, in a way, you are not the same Cecilie;
you have joined a new sisterhood, now I
must look on you as one of the clever
women who 'do things.' I cannot grudge
you your triumph, selfishly I could almost
wish that love meant everything to you,
and art nothing."
The girl hung her head, and the colour
mounted to her cheeks in a flush of shame.
"I always meant to tell you
immediately," she murmured, "though I couldn't
tell the others; it would have made Dick
so unhappy. I have
felt dreadfully bad
about the whole matter, and every word of
praise has made me hate myself more
bitterly."
She paused, and Roderick's grip grew
tighter with sudden tension.
"Who is Dick," he gasped. The eyes
which met Cecilie's were alight with
genuine fear, and the first lurking flame of
jealous agony.
The girl nestled closer to reassure him.
"Dick is only a little boy, but a
wonderful boy, for all that," she replied
reassuringly. "He is full of genius, the talent
that cannot be taught. He sat as my
model here, by this old tree. I chose
the spot because it was our trysting place,
and the stream seemed always saying your
name, as it rippled over the pebbles. You
must hear my whole story, and then you
shall be my judge. Perhaps you won't
love me so much when you know all."
Hardly pausing for breath she graphically
described Dick's sudden appearance at her
boudoir window on the very morning when
Aunt Sarah sent that exciting commission.
She painted a word picture of those
glorious days in the wood, when Pan posed
merrily, with so much purpose; she
fancied she could almost near his piping.
Cecilie did not spare herself in telling how
her hopes of success rose high until that
dark moment when Dick, tearful and horrified, asked in quivering accents what was
wrong with the trees.
"It wasn't only the trees he altered, but
everything everything," she added,
making Roderick realize all the magic of the
boy's brush, which Hayden, the artist, had
recognised so thoroughly. Dick's pathetic
story of a would-be benefactor's death
ended Cecilie's confession. Her listener
heaved a sigh of relief, one of those deep
souled sighs more eloquent than words.
"I am awfully glad you are not a genius,"
he candidly admitted. "I love you so
much better as you are. But I should
like to meet this marvellous boy, and see
what could be made of him, if only in
memory of Hayden, whose, works appeal
to me in quite an extraordinary way. I
have several in my possession, and had
already bought, without your knowing, his
last Academy picture of "Little Hemming"
to put among your wedding presents.
Perhaps I shall have the splendid chance of
giving the world another Hayden, or
possibly a far greater artist, since the dead
man called this child his 'Michael Angelo.'"
With their faces lighted by that strange
radiance, which only Cupid can kindle,
Roderick and Cecilie made their way
across the fields to Mrs. Wright's cottage.
Dick caught sight of their shadows on
the grass, and ran to meet them, with
some clucking hens at his heels, noisily
demanding their evening meal. Roderick
recognised at once the difference between
this boy and others of his kind, the little
fellow looked oddly ethereal with the rays
of the sinking sun enveloping his figure.
His bright, intelligent eyes were fixed only
upon Cecilie, and he gave a start when
Roderick addressed him.
"I hear Mr. Hayden was your friend,"
said the man. "Miss Cunningham tells me
he intended training you as an artist. In
memory of him, and his art, I should like
to fulfil the mission which death snatched
from his hands. You shall come to London,
and study painting, we want you to
make your name."
"Are you glad, Dick?" cried Cecilie, laying
a gentle hand on the boy's shoulder,
for she saw how he was trembling. "Like
Dick Whittington of old, you must seek
your fortune, and somehow I think you will
find it very quickly."
Dick tried to speak. He pressed his fist
to his forehead, and opened, those strangely
expressive lips, but no words came. Then
suddenly he darted forward, and snatching
Roderick's hand, kissed it violently.
"That's all right," said Roderick with
English reserve. "I'll go and see your
mother. If success comes later, you can
thank my wife!"