MASTER OR MAN?
BY EBEN E. REXFORD
(1848-1916)
SYBIL LEITH
stopped on the old bridge, and
leaned over the low railing, seemingly to watch
the ripple of the waters, but with a look in her
eyes which told you she saw far different things
than the shimmering play of light and
shade upon the surface of the stream, whose busy
hands, a little farther down, kept the factory
wheels turning as steadily and relentlessly as the
wheels of fate. She saw, as one sees things in a
dream, the minnows darting about in that restless
fashion of theirs, and they made her think of
the shuttles, flying through and through the
work in the weaving-rooms at the factory, whose
jar and rumble came like a discord to her, even
now. She wondered, in a listless fashion, if any
one could shut out those sounds, after having
worked among them. She believed not. They
became part of their lives, henceforth. How she
wished she could forget the factory, and everything
connected with it, for awhile. She could
rest then, perhaps. But she had watched the
shuttles moving to and fro so long that they kept
flying through the air before her, when she shut
her eyes at night; and she had listened so long
to the crash and thunder of the restless wheels,
that she heard them everywhere. The sound of
them was caught fast in her ears, and would stay
there forever.
As she stood there, thinking, in a spiritless
kind of way, of what a pleasant thing life must
be where there is no such monotony of drudging
in it, as had wrapped hers in from childhood,
like a wall she could not pass, and over which no
pleasant thing from the outside world could ever
come to her, a step upon the creaking planks
aroused her.
She turned slowly, as a person twice her age
might have done, with a little color flickering on
her sallow cheek, a little light making her
discouraged eyes brighten for a moment.
"Good-morning, Dick," she said, putting out
her hand.
Dick's face was aglow at sight of her. To him
she was the one woman in the world.
"Good-morning, Sybil," he said, cheerily.
"You're taking a breath of fresh air, are you?
Wouldn't it be glorious to live out of doors all
the time, these scorching days? It'll be like a
furnace, in the factory to-day, I'm thinking."
"I wonder if a person never gets out, who
once gets into the mills?" she asked. "I think
not. It's for life or death, I don't know which.
I wouldn't care much, if it wasn't for Lois."
"I don't like to hear you talk in that way,"
Dick said, in his grave, slow way. "There's no
need of your killing yourself at the loom as you're
doing. It's only for you to say yes, Sybil, and
you're done with it, forever. You know there's
nothing I'd be gladder to hear."
She turned away from him almost angrily.
The thought of what might be, but which she
made herself believe ought not to be, stung her
sharply, and found expression in her face and
words.
"Don't!" she said, with a little gesture of
impatience. "What's the use of bringing that all
up again?"
"But if you only knew how I'd set my heart
on it, Sybil," Dick said, gravely. "If you only
knew how I'd hoped and planned "
"I do know," she said, a little more tenderly,
but with much bitterness in her voice yet. "I
understand it all, Dick, but there's Lois. It
wouldn't be right for me to marry you, and put
such a burden on you as that. You'd find your
hands full with me, like enough and then to
think of her helpless as a baby. That's too
much. It wouldn't be right for me to say yes,
Dick, taking everything into consideration. I've
thought it all over a hundred times, since since
you told me, and I always make up my mind to
that."
"Didn't I know all about Lois when I asked
you to marry me?" asked Dick. "If I hadn't
been willing to work for both of you, d'ye s'pose
I'd have asked you any such question? You
know better, Sybil. I understand the case
completely, and I ain't afraid to run the risk. My
shoulders are broad enough to bear half-a-dozen
such loads as you and Lois would be. Lois
wouldn't be much more to take care of than that
sparrow, there, when you come to think it over,
to a man like me, with two stout hands. And I'd
work a great deal harder, and do it easier, if I
thought I'd some one to work for that loved me,
and a home of my own. A home, Sybil, think
of that! Don't you know how that would put
energy into me? If I knew that you were waiting
for me, after day's work was done, why, the
hardest job would seem like play, I do believe.
The thought of the kiss you'd give me, when I
got home, would help me more than the promise
of a better place or extra wages."
Clang Clang Clang!
The sound of the factory bell seemed to be
always tangled in her life. It was always breaking
in upon her dreaming, rousing her to the
reality of what was before her.
"There's the bell, Dick," she said, with a long
sigh, turning her face factory-ward. "No, Dick,
I don't think I'd better say yes. It wouldn't be
right."
"I don't want you to decide without taking
plenty of time to think it all over," Dick said,
with a sound of disappointment in his voice, as
he walked by her side, through the straggling
street leading toward the factory. "You haven't
any right to let the thought of Lois keep you from
saying yes, if you love me, Sybil. That's what
you ought to think of, in making up your mind
that and nothing else. If you love me and I
believe you do, Sybil I've seen it in your eyes
more than once you haven't any right to say
no. Anyway, it looks that way to me."
Clang! clang! went the bell again, sending its
brazen thunder across the sky, which seemed to
shut down so low about the factory as to give
Sybil a sense of suffocation.
"I don't believe I love anybody," she cried,
almost fiercely. "If it wasn't for Lois, I'd like to
be dead, I think."
Dick looked at her with a kind of dull wonder
in his eyes.
"Poor girl," he said, presently. "I think I
understand, Sybil, if you don't. This life is wearing
you out. It's killing you, and there's no
reason why it should. All you have to do to get
rid of it, forever, is to say the word, Sybil."
"Yes, I know," she said, wearily. "But I
don't think I shall ever say it, Dick. I'm not
going to have you, or anyone else, think that I
married you for the sake of getting rid of the
factory."
They were at the factory door now, and went
in together. The wheels were turning round and
round in their tireless way. The warp was
waiting for her, at her loom. It made her think
of a spider's web. Somehow, her life had got
caught in it, and she could not break its meshes.
The grim, old factory looked more like a great
spider than ever before.
She hung up her hat, and turned to her loom.
She took up her shuttles mechanically, and set
them in their grooves, and started the machinery.
Clack! clack! clack! Every sound pierced her
throbbing brain, like a knife. She was faint
already. The great room was like a furnace,
reeking with steam. It was such a long, long
time till night. And the summer had only just
begun. It was such a long, long time to the end
of it!
But she could not stop to think. She was
nothing but a factory "hand" a part of the
machinery of the place and she had no right
to think. It was her business to work. She
thought of Lois poor, crippled; patient Lois
and the new dress she had planned to buy her,
and fought back the faintness, which crept over
her now and then. She mustn't allow herself to
get sick. Being only a factory hand, with bread
to earn for two, she couldn't afford the luxury of
sickness.
By and by, the bell rang out for noon. She took
her slice of dry bread and bit of meat from her
pocket, and sat down by the window, where she
could look at the water, to eat her apology for a
dinner.
"It's good enough," she thought, bitterly, as
she munched the dry crust. "I s'pose I ought
to be thankful for it. It's a good thing that there
isn't any butter on it. If there was, I should
be dissatisfied with other things in life, as dry as
this bread is, and want to spread them over with
something, to make them more palatable."
She laughed a little, low, hard laugh, at her
dreary moralizing. A step at her side caused
her to look up. She saw Mr. Leverson standing
there, regarding her intently. He was her
employer. The great factory, and the men and
women in it, were his.
"You look tired out," he said, in his low, even
voice. "You ought to rest."
"What is that?" Sybil asked the question,
almost sharply.
"Pardon me," he said, understanding her.
"I presume what I said sounded like an
impertinence to you. Will you stop at my house, on
your way home, to-night? I have something to
say to you, that cannot be said here."
"Yes, I'll stop," Sybil said. He had some
instructions to give her, probably. She didn't
see why he couldn't give them to her in the office,
as well. But she would stop, of course. He was
her employer, and it was her business to do as
he said.
He came and stood by her loom, that afternoon,
and watched her deft, well-trained fingers
at work among the threads. Sybil wondered if
he didn't consider her a part of the iron-brained
machine, which seemed to keep up a steady
thinking of one thing, from one day's end to
another?. Once or twice, when she looked up,
she caught him watching her in such a strangely
earnest way, that her face flushed a little, with
something more than the heat of the room.
Several times, of late, he had come, to stand by
her loom, and watch her at work. She
wondered why. It bothered her to have his eyes
upon her, and she gave a little twitch of
impatience to the threads she was trying to untangle,
and they broke into fragments in her hands.
Then he went away, and she breathed freer.
How cool and pleasant the path was, from the
street to the house, that night, when she stopped
for her employer's "instructions." The early
roses were brimming over with sweetness. The
grass was like velvet. A little fountain in the
yard played softly, and there was a sound of rest
and dreams in the plash of its waters. The
trees reached out their great arms to her, as if
inviting her to hide away among them, and
forget. She thought of Lois, waiting at home
alone; and, with an involuntary sigh, she turned
from the contemplation of the things about her,
and went up the steps of Mr. Leverson's
stately home.
"He isn't in, just now," the servant said. "But
he told me to tell you to wait, till he came. He'll
be back soon."
Sybil went into the parlor, and sat down. The
easy chair drew her into its embrace, like a
friend who takes you in his arms, to rest you,
and comfort you. She looked about her. The
floor was covered with a carpet that was like a
bit of the mossy woods. The walls were hung
with pictures that were like windows, through
which she looked, and saw the world she had
dreamed of, in a beauty tenfold greater than it
had ever borne in her dreams. Vines clambered
over the windows, and about the white statues in
the nooks and corners. Books were all about
her. A piano stood open at one end of the room.
She went up to it, and touched a key. A low,
sweet syllable of music trembled through the
apartment. It was so sweet, that it drowned the
crash and roar of the tireless wheels for one
moment. But only for one.
Oh, to live in this way! To have nothing to
do but rest and live! She felt, in a vague way,
how dwarfed her poor, mean way of living was.
It seemed like sarcasm to call it living. It was
existence, merely, nothing more.
"I wish this were all mine mine and Lois',"
she said, under her breath. Then she thought
of Dick.
She heard a step on the threshold. She looked
up, and saw Mr. Leverson standing there, watching
her. She grew strangely uncomfortable under
his earnest eyes.
"I have something to say to you," he said,
coming nearer. "I suppose you will be surprised
at it. It will be unexpected. You must not
consider it as being said, on the impulse of the
moment, however. I am not the kind of man to
do things in that way. I have pondered the
matter well, and what I shall say to you, is the
result of deliberate thought. I suppose you
have never thought of my caring for you, but I
do. I have watched your face for a long time,
and I have grown fond of it. Will you be
my wife?"
Mr. Leverson was a gentleman, and she knew
he meant what he said. It came to her in a
swift flash, and she felt the truth in a dazed and
muddled way. She looked about her, and saw
the beautiful things which would be her's if she
accepted Mr. Leverson's proposal. She felt as
if she stood at the gate of Paradise, and some
one asked her to come in. She had wished this
beauty could be hers. It was to be had for the
taking. A word, and the hateful factory-life was
ended forever. She could rest, rest! And Lois!
The poor, crippled limbs might even be made
straight. Who knew? Then she thought of
Dick, and her heart gave a little thrill, that was
like a reaching out of hands to him. And yet
he was so poor so miserably poor! He had
only his hands, she thought, swiftly. Then
something seemed to cry out to her, reproachfully,
that he had more infinitely more, than she
could make herself believe this man had a great,
honest heart, brimful of love for her.
A confused vision of pictures and flowers, of
rich dresses and flashing jewels, and the sound
of music went surging through and through her
brain, to the accompaniment of the grinding,
pitiless wheels.
"I can't think, now!" she cried, putting her
hands to her throbbing temples. "Let me go
some other time, maybe " and then she actually
laughed. But she did not know what she was
doing. She was only conscious of a great longing
to get away from the man who had offered
her his hand. She began to feel afraid of him.
"You are killing yourself in the factory," he
said, tenderly. "The work is too hard. Let me
take you away from it. I do not ask you to
decide now. Take your own time for that. But
I hope it will be favorably."
Presently, she found herself in the street,
alone. Was she dreaming? Had Ralph Leverson
really asked her to be his wife, or had the
fever smitten her with its mighty, merciless hand,
and was this the delirium it generally brought?
She got home, to Lois, at last. She went about
the little, mean room, getting their frugal supper
in a silent, mechanical way, with such a tense,
strained look in her face, that Lois was afraid
of her. When the table was cleared away, she
sat down by the window, and made Lois sit down
at her feet, with her head in her lap.
"Don't talk to me," she said. "I've got to
think." And there she sat, thinking, thinking,
thinking, till late into the night. Her thoughts
were tireless as the wheels. She was powerless to
stop them. They went on with no volition of hers.
She went back to her loom, next day, with the
wheels of thought still turning. Should she
choose this one, or that one? On the one hand,
rest, and all the beautiful things wealth could
buy. On the other, a humble home, and the
wealth of a loving heart. Dear, patient, willing
Dick! How mean and selfish she seemed to
herself, for hesitating in making her decision,
between the man she loved, and who loved her,
and the man who loved her, but whom she did
not love. For she knew she did not, and never
could, love Leverson. But always coming
round in the same circle, to this one thought
his wealth and wealth could buy so much!
But could it buy enough to offset love? She
wished she knew that. What a hard, hard
problem she was trying to solve.
How the machinery crashed its iron jaws! She
fancied it was a great animal, snarling at her,
and trying to get hold of her; and the fancy was
so real, that once or twice she put out her hands,
as though to beat it back, and cried out sharply,
in her fright.
"I'm going home," she said, at last, sick, dizzy,
faint. "I shall go crazy, if I stay here. I'm
not sure but I shall, anyway."
She put on her bonnet, and went out into the
warm June day. She saw the hills beyond the
town, far off, and wrapped about with their own
peace. She wished she were one of them. Then
nothing would ever move her. The world, and
the ways of men, would be nothing to her. The
wheels might go on and on forever, but she
would not mind them.
But which to choose? Which to choose? The
words made themselves into a little verse, and
set themselves to the monotonous hum of turning
spindles, and the click-clack of shuttles.
Whenever she shut her eyes, she saw a great room, full
of beautiful and costly things, with Lois, well
and strong; and then she wavered, and the
temptation, to prove unfaithful to her heart, was
almost stronger than she could resist.
Suddenly, the clangor of the factory bell smote
on her ears. She turned, and looked down the
road, wondering, vaguely, what the matter
could be.
A wild, shrill cry of fire came to her, on the
wind, and at that instant, a great, black cloud of
smoke broke from the upper windows of the
factory. It was strange, but the first thought
that came to Sybil, was one of exultation. If
the factory burned down, she need never go back
to her hateful work again. She would be free.
Then she turned suddenly, and ran back to
the burning building. Perhaps there was
something her tired hands could do.
She knew, before she reached it, that it could
not be saved. The windows were loop-holes of
fire. The eaves were wreathed with a fantastic
cornice of writhing flame.
Suddenly, a great cry rang out from the
terror-stricken crowd. At the window of his private
office, up stairs, she saw Leverson's frightened
face. He must have been asleep, and had
probably just awakened to the reality of his awful
danger. She thought it was death. She could
see no way of escape for him.
"I'll try to save him," some one said. It was
Dick. There was something grand in the sound
of his voice, it seemed to her. Then she saw
him fighting his way through the flames, and the
last glimpse of his face showed her how brave
and determined it was, in the wild tempest of fire.
She dropped on her knees, and hid her face in
her hands, saying, over and over again, in a
prayerful way, "Dear Dick! oh, God save him!"
She knew, then, that the lover who was risking
his life for another, was more to her, than the
lover he was risking it for could ever be. She
had made her choice.
Another cry, like a gasp, from the crowd. She
looked up, and saw Dick at the window of Leverson's
room. He had Leverson in his arms, and
the man seemed to have fainted.
"Throw up a rope!" cried Dick, hoarsely.
Some strong hand flung one to him. He fastened
it about the unconscious man, and lowered him
to the ground, just as the flames burst out of the
windows below him, wrapping the whole factory
in one seething mass of fire.
A groan ran through the crowd. There was no
hope for Dick. He had saved a life, but lost his own.
"Dick, oh, Dick!" Sybil's voice rang out,
sharp and shrill, and those who heard it, never
forgot the keen, awful pain
in it. "Try to save
yourself for my sake!"
Why she said that she never knew. But they
were magical words. He heard, and leaned far
out of the window, in a wild desire to save his
life for the sake of the woman who loved him.
He saw the wire of one of the lightning-rods, not
a foot away from the window. Maybe it would
be strong enough, to let him down through the
roaring hell of fire. He would try. As well die
in that way, as any other, if it must be death.
He grasped the rod, and dropped down, down
into the lurid abyss. The rod blistered his
hands, but he clung to it. The flames billowed
about him, and broke over him, but he held his
breath, and slipped down, down, down. A
thought came to him, that he was going down
forever, and then a blank.
The first thing he remembered, after that, was
a woman's face bending over him, and a woman's
tears dropping on his face, and a woman's kiss
was on his scorched lips, and Sybil's voice was
saying, in a broken way, "Oh, poor, dear, brave
Dick!" and then he thought he must have died,
and this was heaven.
They told him, afterwards, that he was a hero.
Leverson came, and took his burned and bleeding
hands in his, and said to him, that he had
saved his life, and that he would prove his
gratitude in a more substantial way than spoken
thanks. And he did. But Dick only thought
of one thing. Sybil had chosen and the woman
he had loved, and hoped to win was won!
(THE END)