The Man with the Nose
BY RHODA BROUGHTON,
(1840-1920)
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AUTHOR OF "COMETH UP AS A FLOWER."
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[The details of this little story are of course imaginary, but the main
incidents are, to the best of my belief, facts. They happened twenty, or
more than twenty years ago.]
CHAPTER I.
"LET
us get a map and see what places look pleasantest," says she.
"As for that," reply I, "on a map most places look equally pleasant."
"Never mind; get one!"
I obey.
"Do you like the seaside?" asks Elizabeth, lifting her little brown
head and her small happy white face from the English sea-coast, along
which her forefinger is slowly travelling.
"Since you ask me, distinctly no," reply I, for once venturing to
have a decided opinion of my own, which during the last few weeks
of imbecility I can be hardly said to have had. "I broke my last
wooden spade five and twenty years ago. I have but a poor opinion
of cockles sandy red-nosed things, are not they? and the air always
makes me bilious."
"Then we certainly will not go there," says Elizabeth, laughing.
"A bilious bridegroom! alliterative but horrible! None of our friends
show the least eagerness to lend us their country house."
"Oh that God would put it into the hearts of men to take their
wives straight home, as their fathers did!" say I with a cross groan.
"It is evident, therefore, that we must go somewhere," returns she,
not heeding the aspiration contained in my last speech, making her
forefinger resume its employment, and reaching Torquay.
"I suppose so," say I, with a sort of sigh; "for once in our lives
we must resign ourselves to having the finger of derision pointed at
us by waiters and landlords."
"You shall leave your new portmanteau at home, and I will leave
all my best clothes, and nobody will guess that we are bride and
bridegroom; they will think that we have been married oh, ever
since the world began" (opening her eyes very wide).
I shake my head. "With an old portmanteau and in rags we
shall still have the mark of the beast upon us."
"Do you mind much? do you hate being ridiculous?" asks
Elizabeth, meekly, rather depressed by my view of the case; "because if so,
let us go somewhere out of the way, where there will be very few
people to laugh at us."
"On the contrary," return I, stoutly, "we will betake ourselves to
some spot where such as we do chiefly congregate where we shall
be swallowed up and lost in the multitude of our fellow-sinners." A
pause devoted to reflection. "What do you say to Killarney?" say I,
cheerfully.
"There are a great many fleas there, I believe," replies Elizabeth,
slowly; "flea-bites make large lumps on me; you would not like me
if I were covered with large lumps."
At the hideous ideal picture thus presented to me by my little
beloved I relapse into inarticulate idiocy; emerging from which
by-and-by, I suggest, "The Lakes?" My arm is round her, and I feel
her supple body shiver though it is mid July and the bees are booming
about in the still and sleepy noon garden outside.
"Oh no no not there!"
"Why such emphasis?" I ask gaily; "more fleas? At this rate,
and with this sine quâ non, our choice will grow limited."
"Something dreadful happened to me there," she says, with another
shudder. "But indeed I did not think there was any harm in it I
never thought anything would come of it."
"What the devil was it?" cry I, in a jealous heat and hurry;
"what the mischief did you do, and why have not you told me about
it before?"
"I did not do much," she answers meekly, seeking for my hand,
and when found kissing it in timid deprecation of my wrath; "but I
was ill very ill there; I had a nervous fever. I was in a bed hung
with a chintz with a red and green fern-leaf pattern on it. I have
always hated red and green fern-leaf chintzes ever since."
"It would be possible to avoid the obnoxious bed, would it not?"
say I, laughing a little. "Where does it lie? Windermere?
Ulleswater? Wastwater? Where?"
"We were at Ulleswater," she says, speaking rapidly, while a hot
colour grows on her small white cheeks "Papa, mamma, and I; and
there came a mesmeriser to Penrith, and we went to see him everybody
did and he asked leave to mesmerise me he said I should be
such a good medium and and I did not know what it was like.
I thought it would be quite good fun and and I let him."
She is trembling exceedingly; even the loving pressure of my arms
cannot abate her shivering.
"Well?"
"And after that I do not remember anything I believe I did all
sorts of extraordinary things that he told me sang and danced, and
made a fool of myself but when I came home I was very ill, very
I lay in bed for five whole weeks, and and was off my head, and said
odd and wicked things that you would not have expected me to say
that dreadful bed! shall I ever forget it?"
"We will not go to the Lakes," I say, decisively, "and we will not
talk any more about mesmerism."
"That is right," she says, with a sigh of relief. "I try to think
about it as little as possible; but sometimes, in the dead black of the
night, when God seems a long way off, and the devil near, it comes
back to me so strongly I feel, do not you know, as if he were there
somewhere in the room, and I must get up and follow him."
"Why should not we go abroad?" suggest I, abruptly turning the
conversation.
"Why, indeed?" cries Elizabeth, recovering her gaiety, while her
pretty blue eyes begin to dance. "How stupid of us not to have
thought of it before; only abroad is a big word. What abroad?"
"We must be content with something short of Central Africa," I
say, gravely, "as I think our £150 would hardly take us that far."
"Wherever we go, we must buy a dialogue book," suggests my
little bride elect, "and I will learn some phrases before we start."
"As for that, the Anglo-Saxon tongue takes one pretty well round
the world," reply I, with a feeling of complacent British swagger,
putting my hands in my breeches pockets.
"Do you fancy the Rhine?" says Elizabeth, with a rather timid
suggestion; "I know it is the fashion to run it down nowadays, and
call it a cocktail river; but but after all it cannot be so very
contemptible, or Byron could not have said such noble things about it."
"The castled crag of Drachenfels
Frowns o'er the wide and winding Rhine,
Whose breast of waters broadly swells
Between the banks which bear the vine,"
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say I, spouting. "After all, that proves nothing, for Byron could have
made a silk purse out of a sow's ear."
"The Rhine will not do then?" says she resignedly, suppressing a
sigh.
"On the contrary, it will do admirably: it is a cocktail river, and I
do not care who says it is nohttps://babel.hathitrust.org/cgi/pt?id=rul.39030030162632&seq=338t," reply I, with illiberal positiveness;
"but everybody should be able to say so from their own experience,
and not from hearsay: the Rhine let it be, by all means."
So the Rhine it is.
CHAPTER II.
I HAVE
got over it; we have both got over it, tolerably, creditably;
but after all, it is a much severer ordeal for a man than a woman,
who, with a bouquet to occupy her hands, and a veil to gently shroud
her features, need merely be prettily passive. I am alluding, I need
hardly say, to the religious ceremony of marriage, which I flatter
myself I have gone through with a stiff sheepishness not unworthy of
my country. It is a three-days-old event now, and we are getting
used to belonging to one another, though Elizabeth still takes off her
ring twenty times a day to admire its bright thickness; still laughs
when she hears herself called "Madame." Three days ago, we kissed
all our friends, and left them to make themselves ill on our cake, and
criticise our bridal behaviour, and now we are at Brussels, she and I
feeling oddly, joyfully free from any chaperone. We have been mildly
sight-seeing very mildly most people would say, but we have resolved
not to take our pleasure with the railway speed of Americans, or the
hasty sadness of our fellow Britons. Slowly and gaily we have
been taking ours. To-day we have been to visit Wiertz's pictures.
Have you ever seen them, oh reader? They are known to comparatively
few people, but if you have a taste for the unearthly terrible if you
wish to sup full of horrors, hasten thither. We have been peering
through the appointed peep-hole at the horrible cholera picture the
man buried alive by mistake, pushing up the lid of his coffin, and
stretching a ghastly face and livid hands out of his winding-sheet
towards you, while awful grey-blue coffins are piled around, and
noisome toads and giant spiders crawl damply about. On first seeing
it, I have reproached myself for bringing one of so nervous a temperament
as Elizabeth to see so haunting and hideous a spectacle; but
she is less impressed than I expected less impressed than I myself am.
"He is very lucky to be able to get his lid up," she says, with a
half-laugh; "we should find it hard work to burst our brass nails,
should not we? When you bury me, dear, fasten me down very
slightly, in case there may be some mistake."
And now all the long and quiet July evening we have been prowling
together about the streets Brussels is the town of towns for
flâner-ing have been flattening our noses against the shop windows,
and making each other imaginary presents. Elizabeth has not
confined herself to imagination however; she has made me buy her a
little bonnet with feathers "in order to look married," as she says,
and the result is such a delicious picture of a child playing at being
grown up, having practised a theft on its mother's wardrobe, that for
the last two hours I have been in a foolish ecstasy of love and laughter
over her and it. We are at the 'Bellevue,' and have a fine suite of
rooms, au premier, evidently specially devoted to the English, to the
gratification of whose well-known loyalty the Prince and Princess of
Wales are simpering from the walls. Is there any one in the three
kingdoms who knows his own face as well as he knows the faces of
Albert Victor and Alexandra? The long evening has at last slidden
into night night far advanced night melting into earliest day. All
Brussels is asleep. One moment ago I also was asleep, soundly as
any log. What is it that has made me take this sudden headlong
plunge out of sleep into wakefulness? Who is it that is clutching at
and calling upon me? What is it that is making me struggle mistily
up into a sitting posture, and try to revive my sleep-numbed senses?
A summer night is never wholly dark; by the half light that steals
through the closed persiennes and open windows I see my wife standing
beside my bed; the extremity of terror on her face, and her
fingers digging themselves with painful tenacity into my arm.
"Tighter, tighter!" she is crying, wildly. "What are you thinking
of? You are letting me go!"
"Good heavens!" say I, rubbing my eyes, while my muddy brain
grows a trifle clearer. "What is it? What has happened? Have
you had a nightmare?"
"You saw him," she says, with a sort of sobbing breathlessness;
"you know you did! You saw him as well as I."
"I!" cry I, incredulously "not I! Till this second I have been
fast asleep. I saw nothing."
"You did!" she cries, passionately. "You know you did.
Why do you deny it? You were as frightened as I."
"As I live," I answer, solemnly, "I know no more than the dead
what you are talking about; till you woke me by calling and
catching hold of me, I was as sound asleep as the seven sleepers."
"Is it possible that it can have been a dream?" she says, with a
long sigh, for a moment loosing my arm, and covering her face with
her hands. "But no in a dream I should have been somewhere else,
but I was here here on that bed, and he stood there (pointing with
her forefinger) just there, between the foot of it and the window!"
She stops, panting.
"It is all that brute Wiertz," say I, in a fury. "I wish I had been
buried alive myself before I had been fool enough to take you to see
his beastly daubs."
"Light a candle," she says, in the same breathless way, her teeth
chattering with fright. "Let us make sure he is not hidden
somewhere in the room."
"How could he be?" say I, striking a match; "the door is locked."
"He might have got in by the balcony," she answers, still trembling
violently.
"He would have had to have cut a very large hole in the
persiennes," say I, half-mockingly. "See, they are intact and well
fastened on the inside."
She sinks into an arm-chair, and pushes her loose soft hair from her
white face.
"It was a dream then, I suppose?"
She is silent for a moment or two, while I bring her a glass of
water, and throw a dressing-gown round her cold and shrinking form.
"Now tell me, my little one," I say coaxingly, sitting down at her
feet, "what it was what you thought you saw?"
"Thought I saw!" echoes she, with indignant emphasis, sitting
upright, while her eyes sparkle feverishly. "I am as certain that I
saw him standing there as I am that I see that candle burning that
I see this chair that I see you."
"Him! but who is him?"
She falls forward on my neck, and buries her face in my shoulder.
"That dreadful man!" she says, while her whole body is one
tremor.
"What dreadful man?" cry I, impatiently.
She is silent.
"Who was he?"
"I do not know."
"Did you ever see him before?"
"Oh, no no, never! I hope to God I may never see him again!"
"What was he like?"
"Come closer to me," she says, laying hold of my hand with her
small and chilly fingers; "stay quite near me, and I will tell you,"
(after a pause) "he had a nose!"
"My dear soul," cry I, bursting out into a loud laugh in the silence
of the night, "do not most people have noses? Would not he have
been much more dreadful if he had had none?"
"But it was such a nose!" she says, with perfect trembling gravity.
"A bottle nose?" suggest I, still cackling.
"For heaven's sake, don't laugh!" she says, nervously; "if you
had seen his face, you would have been as little disposed to laugh
as I."
"But his nose?" return I, suppressing my merriment; "what kind
of nose was it? See, I am as grave as a judge."
"It was very prominent," she answers, in a sort of awe-struck
half-whisper, "and very sharply chiselled; the nostrils very much cut
out." A little pause. "His eyebrows were one straight black line
across his face, and under them his eyes burnt like dull coals of fire,
that shone and yet did not shine; they looked like dead eyes, sunken,
half extinguished, and yet sinister."
"And what did he do?" ask I, impressed, despite myself, by her
passionate earnestness; "when did you first see him?"
"I was asleep," she said "at least, I thought so and suddenly I
opened my eyes, and he was there there" pointing again with
trembling finger "between the window and the bed."
"What was he doing? Was he walking about?"
"He was standing as still as stone I never saw any live thing so
still looking at me; he never called or beckoned, or moved a finger,
but his eyes commanded me to come to him, as the eyes of the mesmeriser at Penrith did." She stops, breathing heavily. I can hear
her heart's loud and rapid beats.
"And you?" I say, pressing her more closely to my side, and
smoothing her troubled hair.
"I hated it," she cries excitedly; "I loathed it abhorred it. I
was ice-cold with fear and horror, but I felt myself going to him."
"Yes?"
"And then I shrieked out to you, and you came running, and
caught fast hold of me, and held me tight at first quite tight but
presently I felt your hold slacken slacken and though I longed to
stay with you, though I was mad with fright, yet I felt myself pulling
strongly away from you going to him; and he he stood there
always looking looking and then I gave one last loud shriek, and
I suppose I awoke and it was a dream!"
"I never heard of a clearer case of nightmare," say I, stoutly; "that
vile Wiertz! I should like to see his whole Musée burnt by the hands
of the hangman to-morrow."
She shakes her head. "It had nothing to say to Wiertz; what it
meant I do not know, but "
"It meant nothing," I answer, reassuringly, "except that for the
future we will go and see none but good and pleasant sights, and steer
clear of charnel-house fancies."
CHAPTER III.
ELIZABETH
is now in a position to decide whether the Rhine is a
cocktail river or no, for she is on it, and so am I. We are sitting,
with an awning over our heads, and little wooden stools under our
feet. Elizabeth has a small sailor's hat and blue ribbon on her head.
The river breeze has blown it rather awry; has tangled her plenteous
hair; has made a faint pink stain on her pale cheeks. It is some
fête day, and the boat is crowded. Tables, countless camp stools,
volumes of black smoke pouring from the funnel, as we steam along.
"Nothing to the Caledonian Canal!" cries a burly Scotchman in
leggings, speaking with loud authority, and surveying with an air of
contempt the eternal vine-clad slopes, that sound so well, and look so
sticky in reality. "Cannot hold a candle to it!" A rival bride and
bridegroom opposite, sitting together like love-birds under an
umbrella, look into each other's eyes instead of at the Rhine scenery.
"They might as well have stayed at home, might not they?" says
my wife with a little air of superiority. "Come, we are not so bad
as that, are we?"
A storm comes on: hailstones beat slantwise and reach us stone
and sting us right under our awning. Everybody rushes down below,
and takes the opportunity to feed ravenously. There are few actions
more disgusting than eating can be made. A handsome girl close to
us her immaturity evidenced by the two long tails of black hair down
her back is thrusting her knife half way down her throat.
"Come on deck again," says Elizabeth, disgusted and frightened
at this last sight. "The hail was much better than this!"
So we return to our camp stools, and sit alone under one mackintosh
in the lashing storm, with happy hearts and empty stomachs.
"Is not this better than any luncheon?" asks Elizabeth, triumphantly,
while the rain-drops hang on her long and curled lashes.
"Infinitely better," reply I, madly struggling with the umbrella to
prevent its being blown inside out, and gallantly ignoring a species of
gnawing sensation at my entrails.
The squall clears off by-and-by, and we go steaming, steaming on past
the unnumbered little villages by the water's edge with church spires
and pointed roofs, past the countless rocks with their little pert castles
perched on the top of them, past the tall, stiff poplar rows. The
church bells are ringing gaily as we go by. A nightingale is singing
from a wood. The black eagle of Prussia droops on the stream behind
us, swish-swish through the dull green water. A fat woman who is
interested in it leans over the back of the boat, and by some happy
effect of crinoline displays to her fellow-passengers two yards of thick
white cotton legs. She is, fortunately for herself, unconscious of her
generosity.
The day steals on; at every stopping place more people come on.
There is hardly elbow room; and, what is worse, almost everybody is
drunk. Rocks, castles, villages, poplars, slide by, while the paddles
churn always the water, and the evening draws greyly on. At Bingen
a party of big blue Prussian soldiers, very drunk, "glorious" as Tam
o' Shanter, come and establish themselves close to us. They call for
Lager Beer; talk at the tip-top of their strong voices; two of them
begin to spar; all seem inclined to sing. Elizabeth is frightened.
We are two hours late in arriving at Biebrich. It is half an hour
more before we can get ourselves and our luggage into a carriage and
set off along the winding road to Wiesbaden. "The night is chilly,
but not dark." There is only a little shabby bit of a moon, but it
shines as hard as it can. Elizabeth is quite worn out, her tired head
droops in uneasy sleep on my shoulder. Once she wakes up with a start.
"Are you sure that it meant nothing?" she asks, looking me
eagerly in my face; "do people often have such dreams?"
"Often, often," I answer, reassuringly.
"I am always afraid of falling asleep now," she says, trying to sit
upright and keep her heavy eyes open, "for fear of seeing him
standing there again. Tell me, do you think I shall? Is there any chance,
any probability of it?"
"None, none!"
We reach Wiesbaden at last, and drive up to the Hôtel des Quatre
Saisons. By this time it is full midnight. Two or three men are
standing about the door. Morris, the maid, has got out so have I,
and I am holding out my hand to Elizabeth when I hear her give
one piercing scream, and see her with ash-white face and starting eyes
point with her forefinger
"There he is! there! there!"
I look in the direction indicated, and just catch a glimpse of a tall
figure, standing half in the shadow of the night, half in the gaslight
from the hotel. I have not time for more than one cursory glance, as
I am interrupted by a cry from the bystanders, and turning quickly
round, am just in time to catch my wife, who falls in utter insensibility
into my arms. We carry her into a room on the ground floor;
it is small, noisy, and hot, but it is the nearest at hand. In about an
hour she reopens her eyes. A strong shudder makes her quiver from
head to foot.
"Where is he?" she says, in a terrified whisper, as her senses come
slowly back. "He is somewhere about somewhere near. I feel that
he is!"
"My dearest child, there is no one here but Morris and me," I
answer, soothingly. "Look for yourself. See."
I take one of the candles and light up each corner of the room in
succession.
"You saw him!" she says, in trembling hurry, sitting up and
clenching her hands together. "I know you did I pointed him out
to you you cannot say that it was a dream this time."
"I saw two or three ordinary looking men as we drove up," I
answer, in a commonplace, matter-of-fact tone. "I did not notice
anything remarkable about any of them; you know the fact is, darling,
that you have had nothing to eat all day, nothing but a biscuit, and
you are over-wrought, and fancy things."
"Fancy!" echoes she, with strong irritation. "How you talk! Was
I ever one to fancy things? I tell you that as sure as I sit here as
sure as you stand there I saw him him the man I saw in my
dream, if it was a dream. There was not a hair's breadth of difference
between them and he was looking at me looking "
She breaks off into hysterical sobbing.
"My dear child!" say I, thoroughly alarmed, and yet half angry,
"for God's sake do not work yourself up into a fever: wait till
to-morrow, and we will find out who he is, and all about him; you
yourself will laugh when we discover that he is some harmless
bagman."
"Why not now?" she says, nervously; "why cannot you find out
now this minute?"
"Impossible! Everybody is in bed! Wait till to-morrow, and all
will be cleared up."
The morrow comes, and I go about the hotel, inquiring. The house
is so full, and the data I have to go upon are so small, that for some
time I have great difficulty in making it understood to whom I am
alluding. At length one waiter seems to comprehend.
"A tall and dark gentleman, with a pronounced and very peculiar
nose? Yes; there has been such a one, certainly, in the hotel, but he
left at 'grand matin' this morning; he remained only one night."
"And his name?"
The garçon shakes his head. "That is unknown, monsieur; he did not
inscribe it in the visitor's book."
"What countryman was he?"
Another shake of the head. "He spoke German, but it was with
a foreign accent."
"Whither did he go?"
That also is unknown. Nor can I arrive at any more facts about
him.
CHAPTER IV.
A FORTNIGHT has passed; we have been hither and thither; now we
are at Lucerne. Peopled with better inhabitants, Lucerne might well
do for Heaven. It is drawing towards eventide, and Elizabeth and I
are sitting hand in hand, on a quiet bench, under the shady linden
trees, on a high hill up above the lake. There is nobody to see us, so
we sit peaceably hand in hand. Up by the still and solemn monastery
we came, with its small and narrow windows, calculated to hinder
the holy fathers from promenading curious eyes on the world, the
flesh, and the devil, tripping past them in blue gauze veils: below
us grass and green trees, houses with high-pitched roofs, little
dormer-windows, and shutters yet greener than the grass; below us the lake
in its rippleless peace, calm, quiet, motionless as Bethesda's pool
before the coming of the troubling angel.
"I said it was too good to last," say I, doggedly, "did not I, only
yesterday? Perfect peace, perfect sympathy, perfect freedom from
nagging worries when did such a state of things last more than two
days?"
Elizabeth's eyes are idly fixed on a little steamer, with a stripe of
red along its side, and a tiny puff of smoke from its funnel, gliding
along and cutting a narrow white track on Lucerne's sleepy surface.
"This is the fifth false alarm of the gout having gone to his stomach
within the last two years," continue I, resentfully. "I declare to
Heaven, that if it has not really gone there this time, I'll cut the
whole concern."
Let no one cast up their eyes in horror, imagining that it is my
father to whom I am thus alluding; it is only a great uncle by
marriage, in consideration of whose wealth and vague promises I have
dawdled professionless through twenty-eight years of my life.
"You must not go," says Elizabeth, giving my hand an imploring
squeeze. "The man in the Bible said, 'I have married a wife, and
therefore I cannot come;' why should it be a less valid excuse
nowadays?"
"If I recollect rightly, it was considered rather a poor one even
then," reply I, dryly.
Elizabeth is unable to contradict this; she therefore only lifts two
pouted lips (Monsieur Taine objects to the redness of English women's
mouths, but I do not) to be kissed, and says, "Stay." I am good
enough to comply with her unspoken request, though I remain firm
with regard to her spoken one.
"My dearest child," I say, with an air of worldly experience and
superior wisdom, "kisses are very good things in fact, there are few
better but one cannot live upon them."
"Let us try," she says coaxingly.
"I wonder which would get tired first?" I say, laughing. But she
only goes on pleading, "Stay, stay."
"How can I stay?" I cry impatiently; "you talk as if I wanted
to go! Do you think it is any pleasanter to me to leave you than to
you to be left? But you know his disposition, his rancorous resentment
of fancied neglects. For the sake of two days' indulgence, must
I throw away what will keep us in ease and plenty to the end of our
days?"
"I do not care for plenty," she says, with a little petulant gesture.
"I do not see that rich people are any happier than poor ones. Look
at the St. Clairs; they have £40,000 a year, and she is a miserable
woman, perfectly miserable, because her face gets red after dinner."
"There will be no fear of our faces getting red after dinner," say
I, grimly, "for we shall have no dinner for them to get red after."
A pause. My eyes stray away to the mountains. Pilatus on the
right, with his jagged peak and slender snow-chains about his harsh
neck; hill after hill rising silent, eternal, like guardian spirits standing
hand in hand around their child, the lake. As I look, suddenly they
have all flushed, as at some noblest thought, and over all their sullen
faces streams an ineffable rosy joy a solemn and wonderful effulgence,
such as Israel saw reflected from the features of the Eternal in their
prophet's transfigured eyes. The unutterable peace and stainless
beauty of earth and sky seem to lie softly on my soul. "Would
God I could stay! Would God all life could be like this!" I say
devoutly, and the aspiration has the reverent earnestness of a
prayer.
"Why do you say, 'Would God?'" she cries passionately, "when
it lies with yourself? Oh my dear love" (gently sliding her hand through
my arm, and lifting wetly-beseeching eyes to my face), "I do not
know why I insist upon it so much I cannot tell you myself I
dare say I seem selfish and unreasonable but I feel as if your going
now would be the end of all things as if ." She breaks off
suddenly.
"My child," say I, thoroughly distressed, but still determined to
have my own way, "you talk as if I were going for ever and a day;
in a week, at the outside, I shall be back, and then you will thank
me for the very thing for which you now think me so hard and
disobliging."
"Shall I?" she answers, mournfully. "Well, I hope so."
"You will not be alone, either; you will have Morris."
"Yes."
"And every day you will write me a long letter, telling me every
single thing that you do, say, and think."
"Yes."
She answers me gently and obediently; but I can see that she is
still utterly unreconciled to the idea of my absence.
"What is it that you are afraid of?" I ask, becoming rather
irritated. "What do you suppose will happen to you?"
She does not answer; only a large tear falls on my hand, which
she hastily wipes away with her pocket handkerchief, as if afraid of
exciting my wrath.
"Can you give me any good reason why I should stay?" I ask,
dictatorially.
"None none only stay stay!"
But I am resolved not to stay. Early the next morning I set off.
CHAPTER V.
THIS
time it is not a false alarm; this time it really has gone to his
stomach, and, declining to be dislodged thence, kills him. My return
is therefore retarded until after the funeral and the reading of the
will. The latter is so satisfactory, and my time is so fully occupied
with a multiplicity of attendant business, that I have no leisure to
regret the delay. I write to Elizabeth, but receive no letters from her.
This surprises and makes me rather angry, but does not alarm me.
"If she had been ill, if anything had happened, Morris would have
written. She never was great at writing, poor little soul. What dear
little babyish notes she used to send me during our engagement; perhaps
she wishes to punish me for my disobedience to her wishes.
Well, now she will see who was in the right." I am drawing near her now;
I am walking up from the railway station at Lucerne. I am very
joyful as I march along under an umbrella, in the grand broad shining
of the summer afternoon. I think with pensive passion of the last
glimpse I had of my beloved her small and wistful face looking out
from among the thick fair fleece of her long hair winking away her
tears and blowing kisses to me. It is a new sensation to me to have any
one looking tearfully wistful over my departure. I draw near the
great glaring Schweizerhof, with its colonnaded tourist-crowded
porch; here are all the pomegranates as I left them, in their green
tubs, with their scarlet blossoms, and the dusty oleanders in a row. I
look up at our windows; nobody is looking out from them; they are
open, and the curtains are alternatively swelled out and drawn in by the
softly-playful wind. I run quickly upstairs and burst noisily into the
sitting-room. Empty, perfectly empty! I open the adjoining door
into the bedroom, crying, "Elizabeth! Elizabeth!" but I receive no
answer. Empty too. A feeling of indignation creeps over me as I
think, "Knowing the time of my return, she might have managed to
be indoors." I have returned to the silent sitting-room, where the
only noise is the wind still playing hide-and-seek with the curtains.
As I look vacantly round my eye catches sight of a letter lying on the
table. I pick it up mechanically and look at the address. Good
heavens! what can this mean? It is my own, that I sent her two
days ago, unopened, with the seal unbroken. Does she carry her
resentment so far as not even to open my letters? I spring at the
bell and violently ring it. It is answered by the waiter who has
always specially attended us.
"Is madame gone out?"
The man opens his mouth and stares at me.
"Madame! Is monsieur then not aware that madame is no longer
at the hotel?"
"What?"
"On the same day as monsieur, madame departed."
"Departed! Good God! what are you talking about?"
"A few hours after monsieur's departure I will not be positive as
to the exact time, but it must have been between one and two o'clock
as the midday table d'hôte was in progress a gentleman came and
asked for madame "
"Yes be quick."
"I demanded whether I should take up his card, but he said 'No,'
that was unnecessary, as he was perfectly well known to madame;
and, in fact, a short time afterwards, without saying anything to
anyone, she departed with him."
"And did not return in the evening?"
"No, monsieur; madame has not returned since that day."
I clench my hands in an agony of rage and grief. "So this is it!
With that pure child-face, with that divine ignorance only three
weeks married this is the trick she has played me!" I am recalled to
myself by a compassionate suggestion from the garçon.
"Perhaps it was the brother of madame."
Elizabeth has no brother, but the remark brings back to me the
necessity of self-command. "Very probably," I answer, speaking
with infinite difficulty. "What sort of looking gentleman was he?"
"He was a very tall and dark gentleman with a most peculiar
nose not quite like any nose that I ever saw before and most
singular eyes. Never have I seen a gentleman who at all resembled
him."
I sink into a chair, while a cold shudder creeps over me as I think
of my poor child's dream of her fainting fit at Wiesbaden of her
unconquerable dread of and aversion from my departure. And this
happened twelve days ago! I catch up my hat, and prepare to rush
like a madman in pursuit.
"How did they go?" I ask incoherently; "by train? driving?
walking?"
"They went in a carriage."
"What direction did they take? Whither did they go?"
He shakes his head. "It is not known."
"It must be known," I cry, driven to frenzy by every second's
delay. "Of course the driver could tell; where is he? where can I
find him?"
"He did not belong to Lucerne, neither did the carriage; the
gentleman brought them with him."
"But madame's maid," say I, a gleam of hope flashing across my
mind; "did she go with her?"
"No, monsieur, she is still here; she was as much surprised as
monsieur at madame's departure."
"Send her at once," I cry eagerly; but when she comes I find that
she can throw no light on the matter. She weeps noisily and says
many irrelevant things, but I can obtain no information from her
beyond the fact that she was unaware of her mistress's departure
until long after it had taken place, when, surprised at not being rung
for at the usual time, she had gone to her room and found it empty,
and on inquiring in the hotel, had heard of her sudden departure;
that, expecting her to return at night, she had sat up waiting for her
till two o'clock in the morning, but that, as I knew, she had not
returned, neither had anything since been heard of her.
Not all my inquiries, not all my cross-questionings of the whole
staff of the hotel, of the visitors, of the railway officials, of nearly all
the inhabitants of Lucerne and its environs, procure me a jot more
knowledge. On the next few weeks I look back as on a hellish and
insane dream. I can neither eat nor sleep; I am unable to remain
one moment quiet; my whole existence, my nights and my days, are
spent in seeking, seeking. Everything that human despair and
frenzied love can do is done by me. I advertise, I communicate with
the police, I employ detectives; but that fatal twelve days' start for
ever baffles me. Only on one occasion do I obtain one tittle of
information. In a village a few miles from Lucerne the peasants, on
the day in question, saw a carriage driving rapidly through their little
street. It was closed, but through the windows they could see the
occupants a dark gentleman, with the peculiar physiognomy which
has so often been described, and on the opposite seat a lady lying
apparently in a state of utter insensibility. But even this leads to
nothing.
Oh, reader, these things happened twenty years ago; since then I
have searched sea and land, but never have I seen my little Elizabeth
again.