THE CONDEMNED CELL
A CHRISTMAS STORY
BY SARAH GRAND
(1854-1943)
The prisoner was Lady Charlotte Templemore,
who had been condemned to death
for the murder of her husband. Extraordinary
efforts were being made to have
the sentence commuted, but so far without
avail, although her interest was excellent;
the truth being that Lady Charlotte, who
was a proud and self-respecting woman, as
well as a handsome one, had her enemies,
and, numbered among them, was a most
important person to one her position at
the time, whom she had affronted by laughing
him to scorn for having ventured to
make love to her.
People said that her trial had been
conducted with indecent haste and an unfairly
early date fixed for her execution, and
there was strong feeling about it in the
country, but the eve of the fatal day had
arrived and all the concession that the most
strenuous efforts of her friends had as yet
been able to obtain for her was the granting
of her one request, that she might not
be importuned with kind attentions during
her last hours, but left alone in peace in the
condemned cell, to prepare herself to meet
her fate with becoming dignity and
resignation. The prison chaplain had spent some
time with her during the afternoon.
It had been his melancholy office to
prepare her for the worst, and now, as the day
was darkening down, at her express desire
he had risen to go. She had risen, too,
pale, but perfectly composed, and courteously
responded to the grave salutation he
had made her as he withdrew. A warder
showed him out and locked the door, and,
as she stood there, still in a dignified
attitude, drawn up to her full height, with her
white hands folded in front of her, she
listened to the grind of the great lock in its
rusty wards, the jangle and clank of the
heavy keys as they swung from the warder's
girdle, and the fall and echo of irregular
footsteps on the flags souths corridor
without, until the last faint of them
had died in the distance.
Then she sank into her chair slowly, like
an automaton, and sat still a moment
gazing before her blankly, all conscious life
mercifully suspended, though not for long.
It might have been instants or it might
have been hours since the doors closed,
when thought at last returned, and there
came the inevitable "questioning of sense
and outward things," a stammering train
at first, but acquiring precision rapidly.
"Executed to-morrow morning for the
murder of my husband," was the first
fragment of a sentence that took shape in
her mind. "To be hanged by the neck till
I die. Till I die," she slowly repeated to
herself. "It is like a dream, and yet it is
more certain than anything else in life
I ever awaited. I have always known
that I must die been conscious of the
fact but now that I know the when and
where and how, it does not seem a bit
nearer or more likely than it did when
I was a little child playing in the sunshine.
"Executed to-morrow morning. To be
hanged by the neck till I die. Ah!
Heaven!" she broke off, wringing her
hands with a great, convulsive sob "was
I ever a little child? Born to be hanged!
It is so unlikely an end for my father's
daughter, for my husband's wife, I cannot
believe it possible even now. I must
be dreaming! But why is the awakening
so long delayed?"
Again her thoughts halted, but with an
effort she roused herself a little and looked
around the cell. "I used to wonder, when
I read of the condemned cell and prisoners
awaiting execution, how they felt. How
do they feel?" she asked herself. "Dazed?
No, I am not dazed. Afraid? Nno; I
have felt more dread of the dentist! And
I can bear pain. Pain, yes! But the
surroundings? The surroundings will be
horrible, the ceremony will be degrading. To
think of it makes me turn cold and shiver,
my cheeks blanch, my eyes feel sunken in
my head, my heart contracts; but it is not
fear. I could sacrifice myself without
flinching; but to be executed like a
common criminal."
She started to her feet. "Oh, glad am I
to be alone to-night! I shall be calm
to-morrow, and no one will ever know. Know
what? That I am afraid? But am I? No!
It is the loneliness that overpresses me.
See, when I move I am composed enough.
I have always hated to be alone. It is the
abomination of desolation that a affects me.
But, see! My step is firm and light, my
brain is clear. I could walk to the scaffold
as coolly as I walk to that door now." She
suited the action to the word, and then
turned with a smile on her lips, and
swept a royal courtesy of defiance to the
world. "I am health and strength personified,"
she pursued. "Nothing disturbs
me physically nothing, at least, but this
curious pain at my heart that comes and
goes, and it is nothing. I am young and
beautiful, as some think. I may live for
sixty years I mean," she checked herself,
then added bitterly. "I might have lived.
It seems," she sighed, "almost a pity."
She sauntered wearily back to her chair
and sat sideways upon it, drumming on the
back with her fingers, and looking up at the
narrow window. A clock close at hand
chimed the quarter, and others followed in
the distance at perceptible intervals.
"The winter's day is closing in rapidly,"
she thought. "It will be dark in another
hour. Where the universe shall I be
this time to to-morrow? This time to-morrow
I shall know." She turned to the
table beside her, and asked herself, "Shall
I light my candle or shall I watch the
darkness gather for the last time?
How strange it seems, the last of everything!
My last day is done. My last night
approaches. My last twilight is here. Oh,
the twilghts in days gone by! the scented
summer twilights on the lawn at home
beside the sea brothers, sisters, father,
mother mother!" she repeated with a dry
sob that shook her whole frame; and then
she bowed her head upon her hands, which
were clasped on the back of the chair, and
remained motionless for a time.
The silence about her seemed to deepen
with the darkness, but presently it was
broken by a faint sound of music, which
ascended from the crowded city and aroused
her. Languidly she raised her head to
listen. "Music in the street," she thought.
"The lamps are lighted by this time.
People are crowding to places of amusement.
I, the great lady who is to be
executed to-morrow the murderess am
doubtless an item of interest to many; but
the world goes on as usual, nevertheless.
Why should people care? Did I
ever care when others were here?
But, how that wretched music brings
back the past! I should have been dressing
for the evening now, or downstairs
receiving my friends, or going with my
husband to dine elsewhere my husband, great
heaven!" she exclaimed, "I had forgotten.
Oh, but surely I may think of him?
He was mine then, the kindest, tenderest,
best. * * * How lonely it is," she broke
off. "'Oh, for the touch of a vanished hand
and the sound of a voice'" * * * The
words ended in a whimper, but no tears
came.
A dull sound as of hammering muffled by
distance began to be audible in the cell.
"How curiously things recur to me," she
commenced. "Scraps of verse, snatches of
song. * * * I must light my candle.
The darkness chills me. What is that
hammering?" She listened a moment, and
then proceeded to light the wax tapers
that had been allowed her. This done,
she folded her arms and leaned back in her
chair.
"Yes, let me think it out," she
resumed, clasping her hands over her
heart. "It will ease this terrible ache.
It is, not remorse. No. I would not
have killed him had I been cool. I did it in
a moment of frenzy. But," passionately,
"I would rather have him dead a thousand
times than living to my dishonor with her.
I loved him. Yes, and I love him still * * *
my husband, but not my own. The sting is
in that. I love him, but I cannot forgive
him." She sprang up with a vehement
exclamation: "How that hammering distracts me! They might have let me be at
peace to-night." Again the city clocks
began to strike. She had been restlessly
pacing to and fro, but now she stopped to
listen. "Another hour, and I have not
forgiven him. I must, I must before I die.
Oh, my husband! we shall meet to-morrow!
Why is my heart so hard?"
Once more she returned to the chair and
sat down. Her face was more haggard
already than it had been when the chaplain
left her, but the momentary excitement
soon subsided, leaving her listless. "How
did it all happen? Let me think." She
rested her elbow on the table and covered
her eyes with her hands. "Let me go
through it all again. We were married.
No one could have been happier than I was,
more devoted, more thoroughly confiding;
and no one, apparently, truer than he. But
that is why I cannot forgive him! I thought
him true, and all the time his life was a
lie. How do I know? An accident. A
thing that can be told in a moment. Coming
home alone from church one night, I
saw him on in front of me. My heart gave
a great glad leap, and I hurried after him.
He was walking, not in his usual deliberate
way, but as if he were agitated, and when
I noticed that my mind misgave me I don't
know why and I followed him without
trying to overtake him. A woman met him.
He was passing, but she stopped him. I
saw her laugh. She turned back with him,
and they walked on together, talking,
excitedly, she laughing always. They entered
a house, leaving the door ajar, and I
followed them followed them into a room,
and there the woman faced me an older
woman than I am, and handsomer." "Who
are you and what do you want?" she
demanded. He turned pale as death. "I
followed my husband," I answered. "Your
husband!" she sneered. "Yes, mine,"
I cried passionately. She laughed.
"Don't you know of my prior
claims?" she said. "Prior claims?" I
repeated. "Who are you?" "His wife,"
she answered coolly. I looked to him to
deny it, but he only hung his head. "Then
what am I?" I cried. He gave the ghost
of a shrug. It was scarcely perceptible,
but it was enough. The blood of generations
of honored women boiled in my veins.
There was a small knife on the table near
me, a jeweled thing, an ornament, but
sharp and sheathless I seized it on the
instant I sprang I struck" -
She had risen to deliver the gesture with
all the fury of ungovernable rage, and then
she sank into the chair again, holding her
hand to her heart and panting. Moments
of oblivion followed, but eventually she
aroused herself. She was in court this
time, a common criminal standing in the
dock, but cool and proud and self-contained,
answering the Judge in an off-hand
way: "Oh, yes! I him. Guilty, my
lord; I offer no defense for that." The
clocks struck once more, recalling her to
the present. "Do I repent!" she asked
herself. "Can I forgive him! No! no! a
thousand times no! He deserved to die."
When the reverberation of the bells had
ceased, the sound of incessant hammering
grew more distinct.
"What is it?" she wondered, after an
interval of listening. "What are they doing
at this time of night? How terribly
importunate the sound is? It wearies me to
death. Is it real hammering, or is it the
throb of a pulse in my brain? Ah, I
know?" she cried aloud. "I have road it
somewhere. There are prisons where you
hear them. The scaffold! They are putting
the scaffold up."
A long pause followed upon this, during
which she sat rocking herself to and fro in
great mental distress, but this paroxysm
passed in turn, and then her thoughts ran
on again.
"How the hours drag! I wish it was all
over." She looked about her. "How many
poor wretches have already tenanted this
cell? I see something scratched on the
wall there." She took the candle and
went to examine a legend rudely cut.
"John Smith, may God forgive me," she
read, and then commented bitterly: "A
very proper frame of mind, John Smith."
"Mary Peters, for the murder of my child.
I am innocent. May God forgive you, Henry
Butler," was the next she discovered. "Ah,
and thereby hangs a tale of the world's
justice, doubtless," she said, as she passed
on, still examining the wall. "Did she die,
I wonder? Poor little Mary Peters! L. S.
M. B. a cross I can't make that
out. Oh, I'm tired." She took the candle
back to the table and sat down again. "I
wonder why they carved their names on
the wall! For the same reason, I suppose,
that I have read them. There was a certain
interest in the act. Strange how one's
interest survives to the last. I shall be
interested to-morrow in everything." She
thought again of her predecessors. "Some
of them slept, doubtless, the night before.
I wish I could sleep. am so tired. She
yawned and looked at the hard prison bed.
"It is not inviting, and the moment I lie
down such a rush of thought besets me! I
suffer less sitting here."
Her head sank forward on her bosom,
her eyelids drooped and sleep was upon her
all unawares; a period of darkness first,
but from that she passed into the shining
world of dreams, and there she met her
husband, and all the past was blotted out.
The pained expression of her face relaxed,
and she smiled a happy welcome. "Oh,
sweetheart! I am so glad you have come!
I have been so anxious I have had such
frightful dreams. But now that I see you
again all that vanishes. A foolish, nervous
little wife, you say? Yes but, darling, I
dreamt that you were dead, and and
there was something" she grew troubled
"something horrible" her agitation
increased "Robert! Robert! you don't look
like yourself. Why do you groan! What
have I done? Who are these men? What
do they want with me? Tying me!" she
began to struggle frantically. "O Robert!
O my husband! help me! save me!
They're putting a rope round my neck
they're pulling it tight. Did you say hanging
is too merciful? You are not going to
drive nails into my heart?" With a wild
shriek she sprang to her feet wide awake,
and then crouched trembling upon the floor.
"What an awful dream! My husband
standing coolly by, watching the wretches
strangle me. I was going to thank heaven
it was only a dream, but to-morrow
to-morrow oh, I can't die like that," she
panted * * * "dragged out one
woman alone a crowd of men their
coarse hands pinioned blindfolded
forced forward body and soul
wrenched asunder. No, no, no!" She
sprang to her feet, and tore at the door, the
window, the walls, shrieking in an agony.
"Is there no way of escape? Help! help!
help! Save me; don't let me be dragged
forth, and tied and tortured." She threw
herself down on her knees, and appealed
to heaven in a frenzy of supplication. "O
God! take me now now now."
And then the wild burst was over, and
she fell forward on the floor, face downward,
and at the same moment the
hammering suddenly ceased. It was
some time, however, before she recovered
herself, but at last she moved, and
then she slowly rose to her feet. "What
a strange illness. Something has
happened. Something is missing something
familiar some sound? Ah, I know! The
hammering. It wearied my brain while it
lasted, but now that it has ceased there is
a blank, and I am lonelier. Oh, for a kind
word, for a loving look, for the touch of a
hand! * * * No! I do not mean it. I
chose to be alone because the word and look
and touch I loved "
She tried to rouse herself out of that
vein.
"How cold it is. Is there nothing I can
do? Write! to whom? Read! what? Let
me see what there is." She went over to
a chest that stood in a corner, and opening
it began to examine the contents. "Dresses
and ornaments. The authorities have been
extremely courteous. Criminals are not
usually so indulged. Yet, now I think of
it, their dress on the occasion is often
described. Palmer, the poisoner, was faultlessly
attired, and wore lavender kid
gloves the wretch! Oh, surely there is an
immeasurable distance between him and
me? But I will dress, too, as becomes
me, whatever the decision. What is there
here! Black velvet. Black is appropriate.
Mary Queen of Scots wore black and
crimson. And Mrs. Brownrigg was hanged
in black satin. That put it out of fashion
for years, and puts black out of the question
now, too. There are criminals and
criminals. But let me see. Here are crimson
and green, and white besides. Red for
the martyr's blood, green for the martyr's
crown, white for mourning of God.
* * * I'll wear the white."
She proceeded to change her dress.
"What a lovely gown! Fit for a bridal.
When I was married my sisters dressed
me and our old nurse. They wouldn't let
a strange hand touch me. And my mother
stood by, half glad, half sad, all smiles and
tears together waiting to pin my veil and
give the finishing touch the hangman's
task to-morrow. On, well is it that you
died, mother!" She was shaken by another
convulsive sob. "If only I could weep! Will
nothing soften me? Let me try to think."
She sat down on the side of the bed. "My
young husband * * * how his face brightened
when he came to me; how glad he was
when I was happy, how sorry when I
was sad * * * how fearful when I was
suffering * * * how he pretended to
love me! He loves!" She jumped up,
overcome by another burst of rage, and
began to walk up and down excitedly.
"False! false! false!" she cried, and then
stopped, overtaken by a new perception;
"and yet I could have sworn * * * when
the child came, when it was first put
into his arms and he raised the little
face to his" imitating the gesture "that
there were tears * * * But bad men
weep * * * and yet I could have sworn
he loved the child. And when it died
* * * Oh, my God, will nothing soften
me? My eyes are dry and burning; my
heart is cold; I can neither weep nor pray.
All feeling is at an end. Anything but
that. Anything! An agony of remorse,
rage, fierce rage, a rush of tenderness,
grief, to rend my soul, and a passion of
tears to relieve the hell that is in my heart,
the horror of ice that is here." She
clasped her hands over her heart. "God
has forsaken me! A wicked God! I
could curse him, curse nim, curse him and
die!"
Once more the bells began to chime the
hour, and the soft, melancholy sound of one
close by, reverberating through the cell,
arrested her attention. She counted the
slow strokes, each one of which was
fraught with such solemn significance for
herself, and in the brief interval, while she
was so occupied, her mood entirely
changed, her heart expanded, a flood of
tenderer feeling suddenly overcame her,
and the rage, and hate and bitterness
passed from her soul. She did melt,
but the burning sense of wrong forsook
her, and, sinking into hard prison chair
which stood beside the table, she found
herself involuntarily exclaiming in gratitude,
"Dear Lord, forgive me!"
There were some letters on the table,
and after this she began to turn them over
mechanically, looking at them in an absent
way at first; but all at once she noticed
one in particular. "I wonder how I missed
that! But no great wonder under the
circumstances. I have been indifferent to
everything since. * * * A strange hand;
a woman's. I wonder who it can be!
Posted in London on the 5th and this is
the 25th, is it not? Time flies. What a
gorgeous monogram! Too showy. Gold
and silver, red and royal blue. My own
initials, too; now that is singular. I wonder
who it is from."
She opened it with languid indifference
and began to read it; listlessly at first and
in a dazed sort of way, but all at once with
a glow of emotion. The expression of her
face, her whole attitude changed. She
sprang to her feet waving the letter. She
uttered a cry of joy. "Not guilty! not
guilty!" she cried. He did not know he
had wronged me he did not know he
thought she was dead she has written it
here, she has written it herself! Oh, my
husband!" She threw herself on her
knees and clasped her hands. "Oh, my
God! forgive me!" then at last she
burst into a passion of happy tears.
"I would not live now if I could," she
began to say softly when she had
recovered herself a little. "Oh, no! I shall
go to him. In a little while now we shall
be together again, and he will forgive me,
and we shall be very happy, and it will be
forever! What a wonderful thought! he
and I, and Oh, yes! and the baby boy we
lost, both, both! What joy! I can hardly
bear the anticipation of it even! Yet
* * *
A blessed sense of security steals over me.
Just now I thought myself forsaken, but
behold the promise and the pardon. 'I will
not leave you comfortless.' The power to
pray returns. I can say Our Father now
as I did when I was a little child. How
beautiful death is. Lord, I am wayworn
and weary; give me rest!"
She had risen, and now went to the
comfortless-looking pallet and composed
herself upon it with a gentle expression of
content on her haggard and tear-stained
face that was very touching. For
a little while after she had lain down
her slender frame was racked by an
occasional convulsive sob; but she was
smiling when she closed her eyes, and so
she remained. Words, thoughts, images
thronged through her mind at first. She
heard her husband's voice. He called her
to come to him. She saw his face. Once
more there was something between them,
an obstacle to be overcome with an effort.
It was a moment of painful struggle; but
at last! The oblivion of darkness tenderly
enfolded her; and then the dawn broke.
A rosy dawn. It flooded the bare cell.
It radiated her quiet face. It tinted her
bridal gown.
All through the night it had been the
duty of one of the prison officials to look
in upon her at intervals and report, and
always when she heard him coming she had
assumed her mask of proud tranquillity, so
that invariably each report had been
"awake, but quite calm," until the last,
which was "sleeping very quietly."
At an early hour the bell began to toll,
and sheriff, under-sheriffs, governor of the
prison, warders, hangman, all the dreadful
party assembled with solemn and agitated
faces, and they entered the cell.
"She sleeps soundly," the Sheriff said.
"Some one must wake her."
All seemed to shrink from the task, and
while they hesitated a breathless messenger
entered, waving a paper. The Sheriff
took it from him and glanced at it. "A
reprieve!" he exclaimed. "Lady Charlotte!
you are reprieved!" The chaplain had
been bending over her, and now he looked
up. "Yes," he said, "and released. An
angel brought her freedom and forgiveness
hours ago."
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