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BRISEE. "THE WHITE CROSS WAS THERE, GLEAMING AMID THE GREEN GLOOM, AND ON THE SWARD
BENEATH LAY THE BROKEN LILY, AS COLD AND WHITE."
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"Brisée."
MY darling had just said "Yes."
It is a little word, and lies there, without much
dignity or significance, on the paper, but sometimes
it means a great deal. If the world had
brought diadems to crown me, "crusted with
loose gems of powers and pleasures," it could not
have dowered me with the happiness conferred by
that little word just then, for I had asked Lily to
be my wife.
Then she began pulling a flower to pieces in a
nervous way, and stopped my rapture by saying,
with a far-off look in the eyes, which were turned
away from mine:
"I cannot tell, after all, Gerald, whether I love
you as I could love. Perhaps I am doing you
wrong."
And I, blind fool that I was, clasped the little
hand, and cried:
"Oh, to be wronged thus, is sweeter than any
right I know."
Just then we were interrupted by an influx of
visitors. Lily and I came out of the dear gloom
of the recessed window where we had been standing.
The gas was lighted, and the rooms looked
bright and gay. Lily's married sister, Mrs. Carleton,
and her husband, Miss Worth, a sparkling
brunette, and a Mr. Home, made up the party. I
watched my darling with a new delight as she
joined them. She was mine now, my own treasure.
So I noted the faint flush on her cheek and
the golden glitter of her hair, the soft folds of her
blue dress, the pale opaque shine of the pearl ornaments
she wore. But how fragile she was! and
she never seemed to enter heartily in the conversation,
but sat with that far-off look in her eyes,
as if something we could not see was more real
to her than any of the visible things by which she
was surrounded.
"I have heard of such things," said Mrs. Carleton,
in answer to something; "of pianos executing
a minuet, and tables tripping about on the light
fantastic toe; but seeing is believing. I have
never seen it."
"Oh, Professor Farraday dissipated all that nonsense!"
exclaimed Mr. Carleton, a burly, robust
man, troubled by no fantasies.
Mr. Home took something out of his pocket.
"Have you ever seen Planchette?" he asked.
No. We crowded around to see her, a black
imp, whose bodily substance consisted of black
walnut, in the shape of a heart, with two pentagraph
wheels and a lead-pencil for legs. Every
one knows now what they are like, but then it was
a new thing, a dark and inscrutable mystery. Mr.
Home had brought the dark demon from England
with him. He assured us it was a Sphinx which
solved knotty questions, an oracle which gave
potent advice. "A pocket-guide, philosopher,
and friend," said Mr. Carleton, laughing, but regarding
the three-legged as if he expected it to
bite him. "For how much can one procure such
an invaluable companion for life?"
"I gave ten shillings for it in England," said
Mr. Home, gravely. "Do not sneer till you see
it work."
He looked around on the skeptical company
with an examining glance. I offered eagerly
too eagerly, perhaps and was rejected. I was
surprised to see Lily come forward. She looked
pure and bright enough to have visible communications
from angels, I was sure.
Mr. Home approved her at once. A sheet of
fair white paper was spread beneath the little familiar.
Mr. Home and Lily laid their hands
lightly upon the top of her as she had a feminine
name, I suppose we must designate her by the
feminine pronoun. A silence, a long lull, all eyes
directed to the little board.
Then it began racing wildly about the sheet.
"Steady, old fellow!" said Mr. Home, and the
words seemed to fetch it up short, with an odd
flourish.
"Why, the guide, philosopher, and friend has
been on a spree, evidently," said Mr. Carleton;
"a Grecian bend."
But it was writing a drunken hand, Mr. Carleton
said; a large, straggling scrawl, which we all
crowded around to decipher.
"What is it?" all cried at once.
There it was, "Fool," in immense letters, like
an advertisement.
"Why, I begin to believe in it," said Mr. Carleton.
"You see, ladies and gentleman," said Mr.
Home, "that Miss Lily and myself would never be
guilty of such impertinence."
"Oh, go on," cried Mrs. Carleton.
And Mr. Home went on.
"Who is a fool?"
"He is."
"But which do you mean by he? Speak plain,
my good fellow."
"Porker."
Now, Mr. Carleton was a pork merchant, and
there was no difficulty about understanding Planchette.
He rather subsided, and watched quietly.
"Why is he a fool?"
"Because he only believes in things he sees."
There was silence for a moment, and the thing
began to caper madly.
"What's the matter?"
"There's a fellow here wants to talk."
"Well, let him."
"A spirit."
"Fire away," said Mr. Carleton, in language
more forcible than elegant.
I saw a strange, rapt expression on Lily's face,
and I interfered.
"Keep to the present world," I said. "Don't
dip into unrealities."
The lead-pencil leg scratched an answer for
me: "Humbug carry him out!"
Mr. Home explained: "There are mischievous
spirits, who seize an opportunity to speak now
and then."
"Who would have thought that spirits talked
slang?" said Mrs. Carleton. "Do go on. Let's
have that amiable spirit on the carpet, by all
means. Who does it wish to speak to?"
Mr. Home put the question. A new handwriting
appeared, quite firm and distinct: "Lily!"
"Very familiar, I think," I said.
"Well, spirits are familiar, you know," laughed
Miss Worth.
Lily seemed waking up from a sort of dream.
Her cheeks flushed and her eyes dilated.
"What's your name?" she inquired, with a sort
of eagerness that surprised me.
"Robert Dunbar!"
"Oh, indeed, I have not the honor of his
acquaintance, but if he'd like a good article in the
way of hams, I'm at his service," said Mr. Carleton.
"Killed by a cannon-ball at Antietam!"
A sort of chill seemed to pass over the company,
as if we had seen the fatal shot, or heard
the ball whiz through the air.
"What does he wish to tell me?" said Lily,
recovering first.
The pencil dashed wildly about; then ran round
in a circle; then stopped, as if, upon reflection,
it had something to say. Mr. Home read it, and
held it out silently to Lily.
I leaned over her as she read. She gave a
faint scream, and sank back in the chair.
"What is it?" said Mrs. Carleton, coming
round. "Oh, 'I love you I wait for you.' Well,
it's a rather uncomfortable thing to be loved by a
ghost, but don't take it to heart you've only to
refuse him, you know."
"She'll refuse him by raps, I suppose," growled
Mr. Carleton. "One rap would do for any fellow
living, I should think, let alone a dead one. He
don't stand the ghost of a chance."
So they laughed and jested, but I could not
laugh. I saw a strange, new look on Lily's face,
which I could not interpret; an eager interest
half fear, half desire. She looked at the same
time so ethereal, that I wondered whether she
were not, indeed, nearer to the spirit-world
whether she had not fathomed depths of being
which we could never attain, and looked with
spiritual vision into the unseen, till it was more
real to her than any materialism could be, and
Robert Dunbar more akin to her than myself.
The next moment I laughed: "Was I jealous
of a phantom the shadow of a shade?"
Planchette was waiting again. Robert Dunbar
was evidently not satisfied with his brief declaration.
"Come to me, my angel!" he wrote again. "I
am ever with you, and shall be to the end!"
Mr. Home read these words in a strangely
serious voice, and Lily gave a quick cry, and
turned pale.
"The end!" she said, wildly. "What does
that mean?"
"Why, he's no end of spoons on Lily," said Mr.
Carleton, "as they say in England."
"It means that we will have an end of this at
once," I said, as I laid my hand on the dark little
demon. Lily smiled at my fervor, but she looked
strangely. A pallor had succeeded the flush, and
I saw that she was shivering from head to foot.
I stopped further spiritual manifestations at once,
and made her drink a glass of wine.
When she was somewhat restored, she said:
"I suppose you will all laugh at me; but just
as Mr. Home said those words those last words,"
as if she hesitated about repeating them "I felt
a cold, clammy hand touch mine, so I screamed,
and lost consciousness for a moment, I do believe."
Mr. Home looked unutterable things.
"Miss Lily is more keenly alive to spiritual
influences than any one I ever met," he said, in a
half-satisfied way.
"I always knew she was a nervous little puss,"
said Mrs. Carleton, in confidence, to me; "but I
had no idea of this. Our spiritual medium shall
never come here again, if I can help it. I won't
have the child tried in this way, and I shall send
her to bed now."
So my darling, still shivering a little, and with
a frightened, startled look in her soft brown
eyes, went away, and I did not stay long after
her.
The next day I called to see whether she had
recovered from the excitement of the night. She
came into the room quite gayly.
"Well, I have slept off the nonsense," she said,
laughing. "What a silly little goose I was.
Robert Dunbar, indeed! I know I just imagined
that hand. Things did look uncanny, though
didn't they?"
"My darling, any second-rate wizard can do
more wonderful things," I replied. "Let us talk
of more interesting subjects."
So we did at least I was interested, but Lily
looked absent. Sometimes a thought came over
me like a cold shower-bath that Lily did not love
me. She had said she was not sure. She was
cold and fair as a snow-flake.
The next night was marked by Mrs. Fields's great
party. My Lily came down in white silk, with soft
clouds of tulle and malachite ornaments.
"Just the colors for a lily pure white and
green," I said, as she came into the room.
As she drew nearer I saw that a subtle change
had passed over my darling's face the brown
eyes wore a startled expression a deep carnation
burned on cheek and lip.
"Do you care very much for this party, Gerald?"
she said.
"No, my Lily; only because you are going."
"But I do not wish to go I only I do not
want I must go they would laugh at me at
least May would."
May was Mrs. Carleton.
"But I will tell you, Gerald you are my true
friend, and I cannot keep this from you I have
heard from him again!"
"Him!" I exclaimed, in astonishment, "whom
do you mean?"
Lily seemed to grow whiter in the half-light;
her white dress gave her a wraith-like appearance;
she looked like an Undine ready to float
away on the blue waves. Her voice sank to a
whisper, and she glanced about in an apprehensive
way, as if the name would call up a spirit,
as she whispered, "Robert Dunbar." I was a
little hard and impracticable then, I fear. I tried
to laugh, but the sound died away into a moan.
Was the child possessed by an evil spirit? Had
the old days of witchcraft returned? Did not the
dead indeed "rest from their labors," as the Bible
says, or were they allowed to roam about in restless
wandering, to disturb weak and timorous
mortals? But I must treat it as a joke.
"How did you hear from him, my darling? Did
he send a telegram on a moonbeam, or a letter in
invisible ink? I shall have to look after my rival,
I see; and it's so difficult to deal with a ghost! I
can't shoot him, for he's been shot already!"
"Oh, Gerald!" said Lily, with a shudder,
"don't jest about this: I tell you, it becomes an
awful reality to me! Last night when I went to
bed, the moon was shining like day wasn't it
odd? I picked up an old paper to see if it was
light enough to read, and my eye fell on a
name "
"Well!" I said, with some impatience.
"The paper had the list of killed and wounded
at Antietam; and the name was Robert Dunbar!"
"My darling, I can see it all; the name recalled
morbid fancies, and you dreamed the rest."
"Is this a dream?" she said, holding out a
sheet of paper to me.
I took it with some surprise. As I looked at it I
seemed to recognize something familiar in the
handwriting. It was a sort of passionate
love-epistle, full of the most ardent expressions of
attachment, and longing for the hour to come when
she would be summoned to join the spiritual host
to which he already belonged. It was signed,
"From your spirit-lover, Robert Dunbar!" It
was the same handwriting as Planchette's. I met
Lily's beseeching eyes as I looked up, and I could
not laugh.
"Who wrote this?" I asked, gently.
"I did, Gerald; but I did not know what I was
going to write. Some invisible force seemed to
move my hand. I had gone to bed, but could not
get to sleep, when I seemed to hear my name
softly breathed, 'Lily, get up!' I determined to
disregard such a fancy, and turned over with a firm
resolve not to be the sport of imaginary voices.
Then, Gerald but you will laugh."
"No, my darling, I will not laugh."
"I felt again that cold, clammy hand taking hold
of mine, and raising me up. I could not resist; I
was forced, softly compelled to take my seat at
the writing-desk, and my hand was guided to
write this. The thoughts are not mine; the
writing is not mine you can see that readily.
Oh, Gerald, save me from this terrible influence
this spirit-tyrant that will destroy my life!"
I feared for the poor child's reason. I said to
myself, "This must be a form of dilirium."
"I have never heard of such a thing before," I
said. "When the spirits confined themselves to
rappings or answerings when spoken to, it was
bad enough, but really when they are so intrusive
and unreasonable as this Robert Dunbar "
Lily shivered again as if the cold hand touched
her.
"Come."I said, "we will go to the party society;
and gayety will be the better for you; perhaps
you will be no more troubled; I wish you were
mine now. I think I could guard you from all
spirits white, black, or gray."
So we went, and Lily seemed as gay as the rest.
She danced and sang, but I had never seen such
a hectic fire on cheek and lip, or such a radiance
burning in her eyes. I could not help hearing in
sad refrain the lines ringing through my brain:
"I know my face is bright," she said;
"Such brightness dying suns diffuse;
I bear upon my forehead shed
The sign of what I lose.
The ending of my day," she said.
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After this party, Lily seemed to be left for
awhile without any annoyance from her spirit-lover.
I hoped everything especially when she
allowed me to burn the mystic writing, and I saw
the material flames lick up all those ardent
protestations of a spiritual flame which had so
disquieted my heart, and so disturbed my darling's
peace.
The full glory of the summer was burning itself
out in the fires of autumn, and on every hill and
neath the forest leaves, gorgeous as colored
banners, waved in the wind. The first frost "as cold
intense will burn you" had kindled them to flame,
but they had not yet fallen, to be trodden into the
mire and clay.
I met Lily beneath their bright foliage one day,
and said:
"They are lovelier in their death than in their
life."
She did not speak, and I examined her face
closely. I read there the secret she did not care
to speak.
"Lily, it has come again."
"Yes."
"Did he write?"
"Yes."
It seemed as if speech were frozen with this
question, and only one word at a time could drop
from those pallid lips.
"Let me see it, darling!" I said, with a great
and tender compassion; and the poor child took
another epistle, closely written, from her pocket,
and handed it to me.
It was something in the same style as the last
as fond, as full of hope for a speedy meeting but
it contained more than mere passionate
declarations.
There was the drawing of the face of a young
man a handsome, spirited face, with piercing
eyes and a brave, fearless expression the face of
Robert Dunbar, as he looked in life.
There was a sketch of a bit of beautiful landscape
a gentle slope of a hill a glimpse of the
curve of a river a mound beneath a clump of
cypress trees a marble cross, with "Robert Dunbar"
black-lettered upon it.
I gazed in a sort of trance on these tokens of
the spirit-lover.
Lily drew nearer, gazing at them, also.
"And I cannot draw," she murmured, as if
answering any skepticism of mine in regard to
them.
The drawings were nicely executed; a finished
hand had touched the shadows, and given the bold
outline. But could it not be that Lily was a
somnambulist? I had read wonderful accounts of
the powers and acts of persons in that state.
Might she not have executed the drawings, and
written the impassioned declarations, under the
memory of Planchette's revelation, which seemed
to have taken a strange hold on her imagination?
Could gifts and graces meet us in dream-land
and possess us, of which our waking hours are
bereft?
"Have
you shown these to your sister?" I asked.
"To May? Oh, no she would laugh: and do
you know, Gerald, I would rather one should
strike me than laugh at me? After all, why should
we not be able to hold commune with spirits?
many great minds have believed in it. I fear it
I dread it beyond expression; I shudder at the
strange influence that seems to have taken hold of
my life with a deathly hand; and, yet, it has a
strange fascination for me it is 'the desire of the
moth for the star, of the day for the morrow.' I
suppose it is a morbid fancy, engendered by an
unhealthy brain."
I said: "That way madness lies. You want
change, and pleasant thoughts to drive away the
shadows. I shall talk to your sister to-night. I
have a plan to propose."
I saw May and Mr. Carleton alone that evening
I would not pain my Lily by allowing her to hear
their well-meant ridicule and I talked them into
seriousness at last.
"We must travel," I said. "I have planned a
pleasant little tour, which will raise our drooping
flower, I am sure."
"But eh!" interrupted Mr. Carleton, with a
hesitation. "Ghosts may be able to travel, too.
Who can compute their power of locomotion?"
"Hush!" said Mrs. Carleton. "We must jest
no more; we must act. I am ready to give up
everything for dear Lily's good. This projected
trip will bring her back safe and bright for the
winter. You, my love, must attend to business;
but Gerald will attend to us. We'll start at once.
I won't" and this was evidence of great self-
denial on the part of Mrs. Carleton "even stop
for a new traveling-dress."
So it was arranged. Lily seemed to acquiesce
with a quiet gladness. The shifting panorama
of landscape pleased her fancy. She noted all the
tints of the dying year the rosy flush of dawn,
when the sun went furrowing all the Orient with
gold the full splendor of the autumnal sunshine
the brief pale twilights that soon came on with
cold eclipse. No gold-rimmed cloud melted into
the cooler tints no crimson stain of sunset ever
warmed the dull gray unmarked.
"You are better, darling!" I said, one day.
"You see, all that troubled you was a morbid
fancy, and we have traveled away from it."
We had stopped for a few days in a quiet Southern
town, that looked old and moss-grown. Far from
the scene of the war, it had a quiet and serene,
but rather ruinous air about it that rather pleased
us. We were strolling about it now for pastime,
and Lily's gay laugh had more than once rung
out with the old gladness, telling me that she was
cured of whatever dream or hallucination had
disturbed her peace. I could not help giving voice
to my thoughts, but repented the next moment,
when I saw her grave look.
"Oh, Gerald, I wish I could forget; something
within tells me that it will come again that
strange compelling power. Gerald, if that voice
called me to follow 'through the dark or dearth,
through fire or frost,' I must go. Do you know
the lines in Sir Galahad:
''Till stricken by an angel's hand,
This mortal armor that I wear;
This weight and size, this heart and eyes,
Are touched and turned to finest air.'
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That describes my sensations; this clog of the
body seems to drop away, and I believe I do
experience a strange, ecstatic, spiritual joy a buoyant,
exultant feeling while it lasts; but, like
Icarus, my waxen wings melt in the sun, and I
sink back to earth and meaner joys again. Oh,
Gerald, forgive me!"
She had been looking away while she talked,
over the brown upland to a river that gleamed in
the distance, and seemed to forget who was listening
to her strange words. Suddenly recalled,
she said, with a forced smile:
"Let us walk to that river, and see if there are
any white sails on it."
I said no more on the dangerous topic. We
settled, instead, that we would go to Florida for a
month, and talked over various arrangements, and
lamented that we had not seen a plantation of
oranges in full bearing, with the fragrant golden
spheres glancing in the sunshine.
We came nearer the river. We turned the slope
of a hill. I felt a convulsive hand clutch my arm.
I heard a gasping, choking voice utter:
"Oh, Gerald, look there!"
I saw the gentle slope of the hill a gleam of
the river curving about it a marble cross a
mound beneath a clump of cypress trees!
"He is there, Gerald! You see, I cannot escape
my fate. I must go to him; he is waiting for
me. You see, a spirit has more power than any
earthly lover. We thought we were traveling away
from him, and he has brought me here!"
I put my arm about the shuddering girl, and
drew her hastily away. I felt her presentiments
so strongly, that I would not allow her to go
forward and read the name upon the marble cross.
I decided to leave the spot early in the morning,
and then my darling would be safe.
Poor white lily! I carried her, half fainting, into
the house, like a flower that had been beaten by
an adverse storm poor broken lily!
I could not sleep that night. Sometimes I felt
drawn out into the white moonlight to the spot
where I knew the marble cross glimmered out,
ghost-like, amid the dark cypresses. Over and
over again I read the name in letters of gloom
in letters of fire, that branded themselves on my
brain "Robert Dunbar."
I had told Mrs. Carleton all, and we were up
early, to prepare for the journey. We would not
disturb Lily till all was ready. Then, Mrs. Carleton
went up.
She came down again with a ghastly face.
"She is gone!"
"Gone!" I echoed, stunned almost paralyzed
by the word.
"Yes; the room is empty, but she may be near.
Do not be frightened yet. It's such a bright
morning; it has tempted her out."
Ah, no! her doom seemed written before my
eyes; the solid earth seemed taken from beneath
my feet. I was swept on the billows of a resistless
sea on through field and fen, I know not
how, to the fearful spot. Sparkling in the morning
sun shone the river as it went rejoicing on its,
way dewdrops glittered every
where
birds filled the air with a rippling tide of music.
The white cross was there, gleaming amid the
green gloom, and on the sward beneath lay the
broken lily, as cold and white.
Dead!
"The light upon her yellow hair, and not within her eyes;
The light still there upon her hair, and death within her eyes."
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So lovely still my blighted flower! that her
dead loveliness seemed fairer than any blooming
beauty, so saintly and so pure, though her clothes
were drenched by the night-dews, and the clay
clung to her tender feet. How had she found the
place again? How had the midnight cry led her
out?
"My God!" cried Mrs. Carleton, pressing forward
to the place, "the name is 'Robert Dunbar!'"