THE MYSTERY WITHIN US.
By Pauline E. Hopkins.
(1859-1930)
"Speaking of spiritualistic phenomena, and the existence of
guardian angels, and that there are means of actual
communication between the denizens of earth and those bright spirits
why, my dear Jack, I do believe in these things."
"Then you agree with the immortal bard that 'there are
more things in heaven and earth than are dreamt of in our
philosophy.'"
When I left home five years before, I had fretted a good deal
about my friend Tom Underwood. I knew that he was in
financial difficulties, but his indomitable pride was such that I
dared not offer him the pecuniary help which I longed to give
and which I felt was sorely needed. I had learned nothing
from his occasional letters except that he was well. Upon my
return from a long exile we met and resumed our friendly
relations, to an extent, although there was, I felt, a something
which he held back from me, and which would, if told, explain
the state of great success and eminence which he had attained
in his profession as a physician, and as an author, too, of
eagerly sought scientific works on subjects pertaining to the
science of the preservation of life. I found, indeed, a great
fascination in reading the most wonderful work of its kind that
I had ever chanced upon, entitled "The Ethics of Life," and I
did not wonder at his success.
To-night he had invited me to a tete-a-tete dinner at his
bachelor quarters; this was the first time we had so dined since
my return. After finishing our repast, I settled myself in the
most comfortable position I could assume, and while I silently
waited for my friend to give me the confidence which I felt
would be natural to the time and place, I enjoyed his fine
Havanas and admired the elegance of his surroundings.
Tom's rooms formed the top floor of one of those wonderful
apartment houses with which large cities now endeavor to cater
to the refined tastes of those men who have, apparently, fore
sworn matrimony, to the despair of the fair sex and the delight
and profit of the speculator to whom the bachelor apartment
house is a veritable mine. I glanced curiously about me at the
rich furnishings which betokened the man of wealth and
culture. An attentive man servant glided in and out and
ministered to our comfort. It was like a story from the "Arabian
Nights" the luxury, the ease, the elegance. Outside the
twilight shades gathered over the roofs of the busy city and
mingled and melted into each other; the clouds, tinged with
the gold of an exquisite sunset were, for a moment, radiant
angel forms, clad in celestial garments of light, covering the city
with their heavenly mantles before they were lost in the rapid
descent of the night shadows. Tom threw his cigar stump
away, and turning to me, said:
"The thoughts expressed by the bard so many years ago
prove the inspiration of his genius, and could the many strange
things which happen in our individual lives be recorded we would
be justified in calling ourselves a world mentally unbalanced.
"When you left home, Jack, I was, as you doubtless
surmised, a bankrupt. My patients were as poor as myself and I
treated the most of them for nothing. I had drawn a blank at
every turn of Fortune's wheel. Love, at one time, had seemed
to present a happy augury for a happy future. Poor fool that I
was. She turned from me with scorn for my poverty.
"One evening I sat in my cheerless room and weighed care
fully each event in my life struggles and disappointments,
against the few successes which had come to me. The result
was too much for me. I went to my mineral cabinet and
deliberately selected a bottle of prussic acid with the intention
of ending it all right there. I seated myself on the edge of my
couch and watched the dying candle as it prepared for its final
disappearance, just as the clock in a neighboring room struck
twelve. So shall I be in a short time, I thought, as I watched
the dying candle. What is life anyhow, I argued, but a flame
easily extinguished by the rude hand of destiny or misfortune.
And is it not manlier to take arms against a sea of trouble and
end all, than to tamely bear the buffets of misfortune and the
cold scorn of the world? I raised the bottle to my lips with
the intention of draining it. Halfway there my arm lost its
carrying power, and I sat upon the edge of my couch startled
into momentary forgetfulness of my project as I mentally
analyzed the condition of the arm. Again I essayed to raise
the member, but although my mind was more active than it had
been for some time, I found that my entire body had lost the
power of volition! Imagine my sensations! In no way could I
account to myself for this condition. My bodily health was perfect.
"To say I was astonished is putting it mildly. I was
dumbfounded! I was wont to boast, if you remember, Jack, that
my nerves were impervious to fear, but now I felt absolute
terror. I arose from my couch, and then, overcome by an
irresistable impulse of weakness, sank back again and closed
my eyes. The next instant a voice sounded in my ears:
"'Be not afraid; it is I.'
"My mind worked with lightning-like rapidity; I concluded
that I was having a psychological experience, so trying to
overcome my fear, I endeavored to put in practice certain rules
governing such phenomena. I thought a question and the
answer came: 'Look and see.'
"At these words I felt compelled to unclose my eyes and
sit upright. A faint light had settled about the only armchair
the room contained and my mind seemed forced to centre itself
upon this halo. Gradually the shadowy outlines assumed the
form of a man, and I could even trace the features, but no one
feature attracted me so much as the eyes; they dazzled me,
they were so bright like piercing wells of light. All
sensations of fear ceased as I gazed into their limpid depths.
Sorrow left me and peace took the place of black despair.
"At last the Presence spoke. I say spoke, but, indeed, no
sound broke the silence of the room. The Presence seemed to
speak, although I was well aware that it did not. I had heard
and read much of the power which lies in the action of one
magnetic mind upon another, but never before had I
experienced a vivid electrical impression.
"'What would you do, rash man? Overcome by the petty
obstacles that have filled a pathway intended to end in benefit
to yourself and others, after the needed lessons necessary to
develop the latent faculties with which you have been most
generously endowed, would you destroy the life that is not
yours? By the divine will of God you were designed as an
instrument for the accomplishment of certain plans formed
before your birth. Would you in the rash despair of human
short-sightedness destroy the tenement and reduce the spirit
of life within you to the impenetrable darkness and wild
tempests of the ocean of regret to which the self-destroyed are
forever doomed?"
"I sat in silence, receiving the impressions that emanated
from the shape before me. Over the shadowy features various
emotions passed: stern denunciation, pity, and finally, grief, as
it continued: 'Once, like you, I lived in the flesh, although
I know now that I never lived until I died to earth and left my
body to assume the form of my Creator; for only in our
spiritual essence do we assume the image of God. This clay
house is but the casket within which God created man in His
own image that is the ethereal, fleeting animation which we
call life, and which comes we know not how, and goes we know
not where.
"The Presence paused again in the midst of impressions
made upon me like waves of electrical shocks most delicately
given. I seemed to recognize the ideas expressed, and even
the language was familiar. Gradually my mind was led to
thoughts of a physician who had instituted a new epoch in
medicine in the cure of certain chronic diseases called incurable
by the medical profession. This man died just at the time
when his fame was nearing its zenith, and physicians were
seriously contemplating the adoption of methods quite foreign
to accepted ideas. Dr. Thorn's books (he was the author of
three wonderful treatises on 'The Philosophy of the Three
Ethers') were my daily companions, and I had often wished
it had been my privilege to know the man and to have seen
something of his mysterious cures. As I reached the name of
Dr. Thorn, in my mind, I glanced at the Presence. The
outlines wore a shadowy smile, and I received the impression that
I was right in thinking that I beheld the spiritual essence of
the great physician.
"'Yes, I was Dr. Thorn, and I would have given the whole
of my hard-earned fortune to have remained in the body a few
years longer. The transgression of certain laws in the matter
of my physical being caused the failure in my own case of the
formula which I used for the cure of blood poisoning, and so
the vitiated corpuscles dominated my whole system and I made
the great change before I realized that it had come. In the
midst of my grief for those I had left and my lost art, I
received the promise from the Divinity that my discoveries should
not be lost, and that one should be given me who should revive
and restore the whole of my system. You are he. Be pure in
thought and aspiration; diligent and contented; seek and find.'
"When I came to myself in the early morning hours, I
awoke as one from a long sleep. I still sat upon the side of
my couch, but the bottle of poison I have never seen since.
The room was cold and cheerless and upon the table which
stood at my elbow was the full manuscript of the book that has
made me famous and has brought me a fortune. I invariably
find prescriptions and treatises upon chronic cases on that table by
my bedside in the morning when I awake.
"I cannot account for all this except by quoting the words
which you have used: 'There are more things in heaven and
earth than are dreamt of in our philosophy.'"
(THE END)