THE HIDDEN DOOR.
BY VERNON LEE.
[pseud for Violet Paget (1856-1935)]
IT
seemed to Decimus Little that there could be no
doubt left. His only wonder was whether any one else
had been near making that discovery. As he sat in a
deep window of the big drawing-room, the light of the
candles falling yellow upon the shining white arms and
shoulders, the shining white expanses of shirt-front, the
lustrous silks and lustrous black cloth within doors; the
great wave of moor and fell unfurling grayish-green in
the pale-blue twilight without; as he sat there alone in
the window, he wondered how it would be if any of these
creatures assembled for the coming of age of the heir of
Hotspur Hall could guess that he knew. His eyes
mechanically followed the tall figure of his host, as his broad
shoulders and gray beard appeared and reappeared in the
crowd; they sought out the yellow ridge of curls of the
son and heir, as his head rose and fell while talking to
the ladies in the corner. What if either of them could
guess? If old Sir Hugh Hotspur could guess that there
was in the world another creature beside himself who
knew the position of that secret door; if young Hotspur
could guess that there existed close by another man who
might, any day, penetrate into that secret chamber to
which, at the close of these merry-making days, the
youth must be solemnly admitted, to lose, during that
fatal hour among unspeakable mysteries, all lightness of
heart for ever?
Mr. Little was not at all surprised at the fact of having
made this extraordinary discovery. Although in no
way a conceited man, he was accustomed to think of
himself as connected with extraordinary matters, and in
some way destined for an extraordinary end. He was
one of those men who, without ever having done, or
even said, or perhaps even thought, anything especially
remarkable, are yet remarkable men. Whenever he
came into a room, he felt people's eyes upon him, and
knew that they were asking, "Who is that young
man?" And still Mr. Decimus Little did not consider
himself handsome, nor did any one else consider him
so, to his knowledge. From the matter-of-fact point
of view, all one could say was that he was of middle
height, more inclined to be fat than thin, with small
not irregular features, hair varying between yellow and
gray, a slight stoop, a somewhat defective sight, and a
preference for clothes of ample cut and of neutral tints.
But then the matter-of-fact eye just missed that
something indefinable which constituted the remarkable character of Mr. Little's appearance. As it was with his
person, so likewise was it with his history; there was
more significance therein than could easily be defined.
A distant relative, on the female side, of the illustrious
border house of Hotspur, Mr. Little possessed a modest
income and the education of a gentleman. He had
never been to school, and had left college without
taking his degree. He had begun reading for the law, and
left off. He had tried writing for the magazines, but
without success. He had at one time inclined to
High-Church asceticism and the moralizing of "Whitechapel;
he had also been addicted to socialism, and spent six
months learning to make a chest of drawers in a
Birmingham co-operative workshop. He had begun writing
a biography of Ninon de Lenclos, studying singing, and
forming a collection of rare medals; and he was now
considerably interested in Esoteric Buddhism and the
Society for Psychical Research, although he felt by no
means prepared to accept the new theosophy, nor to
indorse the conclusions concerning thought transference.
And finally, and quite lately, Mr. Decimus Little had also
been in love, and had become engaged to a cousin of his,
a young lady studying at Girton College; but he was
not quite sure whether the engagement was absolutely
binding on either side, or whether marriage would be
certainly conducive to the happiness of both parties. For Mr.
Decimus Little was gradually maturing a theory to the
effect of his being a person with a double nature, reflective
and idealistic on the one hand, and capable, on the other,
of extraordinary impulses of lawlessness; and it is notorious
that such persons, and indeed, perhaps, all very
complex and out-of-the-common personalities are not very fit
for the marriage state. It was consonant with what Mr.
Little often lamented as the excessive skepticism of his
temper, that he should not have made up his mind about
the hidden chamber at Hotspur Hall, and the strange
stories concerning it. He had often discussed the matter,
which, as he remarked, was a crucial one in all questions
of the supernatural. He had triumphantly argued
with a physiologist at his club that mere delusion could
not be a sufficient explanation for so old and diffused a
belief, as, indeed, mere delusion could not account for
any belief of any kind. He had argued equally
triumphantly with a clergyman in the train against the
notion that the occupant of the secret chamber was the
Evil One, and had added that the existence of evil
spirits offered serious, very serious, difficulties to a
thoughtful mind. And Mr. Little, being, as he often
remarked, open to arguments and evidence on all points,
had elaborated various explanations of the mystery of
the hidden chamber, and had even attempted to sound
the inhabitants of Hotspur Hall on the subject. But the
servants had not understood his polished but rather shadowy
Oxford English, or he had not understood their
thick Northumbrian, and the members of the family had
dropped the subject with a somewhat disconcerting
sharpness of manner; and Mr. Little was the last man
in the world to rudely invade the secrets of others, by
experiments of towels hung out of windows, and such
like; indeed, the person capable of such courses would
have inspired him with horror.
And by an irony of fate Mr. Little believed in the
irony of fate, and was occasionally ironical himself it
had been given to him, to this skeptical and unobtrusive
man, to discover that room hidden in the thickness of
the Norman wall, and whose position had baffled so much
ingenious, pertinacious, and impertinent inquiry.
There could no longer be any doubt about it; this
door, revealed only by its hollow sound and its rusty iron
bolt, against which Mr. Little had accidentally leaned
that day when the shame of having intruded upon a
flirtation (and a flirtation, too, between the heir of
Hotspur and the heiress of his hereditary foes the Blenkinsops)
had made him rush, like a mad creature, along
unknown passages and up the winding staircase of the peel
tower this door, whitewashed to look like stone and
hidden just under the highest battlements of Hotspur,
could only be that of the mysterious chamber. It had
flashed across Mr. Little's mind when first he had leaned,
confused and panting, against the wall of the staircase,
and the wall had yielded to his pressure and creaked
perceptibly; and the certainty had grown with every
subsequent examination of the spot, and of the exterior of
the castle. People had hitherto wasted their ingenuity
upon seeking a window in Hotspur Hall which should
correspond with no ostensible room; accident had
revealed to Mr. Little a room which corresponded with no
window visible from without. It now seemed so simple
that it was impossible to conceive how the secret could
so long have been kept. The secret chamber was, could
be, only in the oldest portion of the castle, in the peel
tower, built for the protection of stock and goods from
the Scottish raids; and it was, it could be, only under
the very roof of the tower, taking air and light through
some chimney or trap-door from the battlements above.
There could be no doubt about it; and as Mr. Decimus
little sat in the window-seat of the great drawing-room
at Hotspur, with on the one side the crowd of
guests brilliant in the yellow candle-light, and the great
dark wave of fell and moor rising into the blue twilight
on the other, he thought how strange it was that of all
these people there was only one, besides the master of
Hotspur, who knew the position of the fatal room:
only one besides the heir of Hotspur who might who
knows? penetrate into its secrets, and that one person
should be himself. Strange; and yet, somehow, it did
not take him by surprise.
And, after all, what was the secret of that chamber?
A monstrous creature, or race of creatures, hidden away
by the unrightful heirs? An ancient ancestor, living
on by diabolic arts throughout the centuries? A demon,
a specter, some horror nameless because inconceivable
to those who had not seen it, or perhaps some almost
immaterial evil, some curse lurking in the very atmosphere
of the place? It was notorious that the
something, whatever it was, made it impossible for a
Hotspur ever to marry a Blenkinsop; that the heir of
Hotspur was introduced to this mystery on coming of age;
and that no Hotspur, after coming of age, had ever
been known to smile: these were well authenticated
facts; but what mystery or horror upon earth or in hell
could be sufficient cause for these well ascertained
results, no one had ever discovered. Every explanation
was futile and insufficient.
These were the thoughts which went on in Mr.
Little's mind throughout that week of coming of age at
Hotspur Hall. All day and all night at least, as much of
the night as he could account for these questions kept
going round and round in his mind, presenting now
one surface, now another, but ever present and ever
active. He walked about, ate his dinner, talked, danced
automatically, knowing that he did it all, but as one
knows what another person is doing, or what one is
reading in a book, without any sense of its being one's
self or its being real; nay, with a sense of being
removed miles and miles from it all, living in a different
time and place, to which this present is as the past and
the distant. The secret chamber its mystery; the
door, the color of the wall, the shape of the iron bolt,
the slant of the corkscrew steps these were reality in
the midst of all this unrealness. And withal a strange
longing: to stand again before that door, to handle once
more that rusty bolt; a wish like that for some song,
or some beloved presence, the desire for that ineffable
consciousness, that overwhelming sense of concentrated
life and feeling, of being there, of realizing the thing.
No one, reflected Mr. Little, can know what strange
joys are reserved for strange natures; how certain creatures,
too delicate and unreal for the every-day interests
and pleasures of existence to penetrate through the
soul-atmosphere in which they wander, will vibrate, with
almost agonized joy, live their full life on contact with
certain mysteries. Every day Mr. Little would seek
that winding staircase in the peel tower; at first with
hesitation and shyness, stealing up almost ashamed of
himself; then secretly and stealthily, but excited,
resolute, like a man seeking the woman he loves, bent upon
the joy of his life. Once a day at first, then twice, then
thrice, counting the hours between the visits, longing
to go back as soon as he had left, as a drunkard longs
to drink again when he has just drunk. He would
watch for the moment when the way was clear, steal
along the corridors and up the winding stairs. Then,
having reached close to the top of the staircase, near a
trap-door in the ceiling which led on to the battlements
of the tower, he would stop, and lean against the shelving
turning wall opposite the door, or sit down on the
steps, his eyes fixed on the tower wall, where a faint
line and the rusty little bolt revealed the presence of
the hidden chamber.
What he did it would be hard to say; indeed, he
did nothing, he merely felt. There was nothing at all
to see, in the material sense; and this piece of winding
staircase was just like any other piece of winding
staircase in the world: it was not anything external
that he wanted, it was that ineffable something within
himself. So at least Mr. Little imagined at first,
frequently persuading himself that, to a nature like his,
all baser satisfaction of curiosity was as nothing; telling
himself that he did not care what was inside the room,
that he did not even wish to know. Why, if by the
pulling of that bolt he might see and know all, he
would not pull it. And, saying this to himself, by
way of proving it, he laid his fingers gently on the
bolt. And in so doing he discovered the depth of
his self-delusion. How different was this emotion when
he felt he actually felt the bolt begin to slide in
his hand, from what he had experienced before, while
merely contemplating it! The blood seemed to rush
through his veins, he felt almost faint. This was reality,
this was possession. The mystery lay there, with
the bolt, in the hollow of his hand; at any instant he
might . . . . Mr. Little had no intention of drawing
the bolt. He never reasoned about it, but he knew
that that bolt never must, never should, be drawn by
him. But in proportion to this knowledge was the
entrancing excitement of feeling that the bolt might
be drawn, that he grasped it in his fingers, that a little
electric current through some of his nerves, a little
twitch in some of his muscles, and the mystery would
be disclosed.
It was the last of the seven days' revelry of the
coming of age. All the other neighboring properties
of the Hotspurs had been visited in turn; tenants had
been made to dine and dance on one lawn after
another; innumerable grouse had been massacred on the
moors; endless sets of Venetian lanterns had been
lighted, had caught fire, and tumbled on to people's
heads; Sir Hugh's old port and Johannisberg, and
the strange honey-beer, called Morocco, brewed for
centuries at Hotspur, had flowed like water, or rather
like the rain, which freely fell, but did not quench
that northern ardor. There was to be a grand ball
that night, and a grand display of fire-works. But Mr.
Little's soul was not attuned to merriment, nor were
the souls, as he suspected, of Sir Hugh Hotspur and
his son. For, according to popular tradition, it was
on this last night of the seven days' merry-making
that the heir of Hotspur must be introduced into the
hidden chamber.
Throughout lunch Mr. Little kept his eyes on the
face of his host and his host's son. What might be
passing in their mind? Was it hidden terror or a
dare-devil desperation at the thought of what the night
must bring? But neither Sir Hugh nor young Harry
showed the slightest emotion; their faces, it seemed to
Mr. Little, were imperturbable like stone.
Mr. Little waited till the family and guests were
safely assembled on the tennis-lawn, then hastened
along the corridor and up the steps of the peel tower.
The afternoon, after all the rain, was hot and steamy,
clearly foreboding a storm; and as Mr. Little groped his
way up the tower steps, he felt his heart moving slackly
and irregularly, and a clamminess spread over his face
and hands; he had to stop several times in order to
take breath. As usual, he seated himself on the
topmost step, holding his knees with his arms, and looking
at the piece of wall opposite, which concealed the
mysterious door.
Mr. Little sat there a long time, while the tower
stairs grew darker and darker, the faint line betraying
the door grew invisible, and even the bolt was lost in
the general darkness. To-night the thought, nay,
almost the sentence in which it was framed, went on like
a bell in Mr. Little's mind to-night they would creep
up those stairs, they would stand before that door. Sir
Hugh's hand would be upon that bolt: he saw it all so
plainly, he felt every tingle and shudder that would
pass through their bodies. Mr. Little rose and gently
grasped the bolt; how easily it would move! Sir Hugh
would not require the smallest effort. Or would it be
young Harry Hotspur? No; it would doubtless be Sir
Hugh. He would pause like that a moment, his hand
on the bolt, whispering a few words of encouragement,
perhaps a prayer. No; he would be silent. He would
hold the bolt, little guessing how recently another hand
had been upon it, little dreaming that, but a few hours
before another member of the family of Hotspur (for
Mr. Little always regarded himself in that light) had
had it in his power to . . .
The thought remained unfinished in Mr. Little's
mind. With a cry he fell all of a heap upon the steps,
a blinding light in his eyes, a deafening roar in his ears.
He had opened the secret door.
He came slowly to his senses, and with life there
returned an overwhelming, vague sense of horror. What
he had done he did not know; but he knew he had
done something terrible. He slid, it seemed to him
that he almost trickled for his limbs had turned to
water down the stairs. He ran, and yet seemed to be
dragging himself, along the corridors and out of one
of the many ivy-grown doorways of the old border
castle. To the left hand of the gate, at a little distance,
was the tennis-court; a long beam of sun, yellow among
the storm-clouds, fell upon the grass, burnishing it into
metallic green, and making the white, red, yellow,
and blue of the players' dresses stand out like colored
enamel. Some of them shouted to him, among others
young Harry Hotspur; but Mr. Little rushed on, heedless
of their shouts, scaling the banks of grass, breaking
through the hedges, scrambling up hillside after hillside,
until he had got to the top of the fells, where the short
grayish-green grass began to be variegated with brown
patches of bog and lilac and black patches of heather,
and cut in all directions by the low walls of loose black
stones. He stopped and looked back. But he started
off again, as he saw in the distance below, among
the ashes and poplars of the narrow valley which
furrowed those treeless undulations of moorland, the
chimney-stacks of Hotspur Hall, the battlements of
the square, black peel tower, reddened by the low
light.
On he went, slower, indeed, but still onward, until
every vestige of Hotspur and of every other human
habitation was out of sight, and the chain of fells had
closed round him, billow upon billow, under the fading
light. On he went, looking neither to the right nor to
the left, save when he was startled by the bubbling of a
brook, spurting from the brown moor bog on to the
stony road; or by the bleating of the sheep who
wandered, vague white specks, upon the grayish grass of
the hillside. The clouds accumulated in gray masses,
with an ominous yellow clearing in their midst, and
across the fells there came the sound of distant thunder.
Presently a few heavy drops began to fall; but Mr.
Little did not heed them, but went quickly on, among
the bleating of the sheep and the cry of the curlews,
along the desolate road across the fells; rain-drop succeeding rain-drop, till the hill-tops were enveloped in
a sheet of rain.
But Mr. Little did not turn back. He was dazed,
vacant, quite unconscious of all save one thing: he had
opened the hidden door at Hotspur Hall.
At length the road made a turn, began to descend,
and in a dip of the fells some light shone forth in the
darkness and the mist Mr. Little started, and very
nearly ran back: he had thought for a moment that
these must be the lights of Hotspur: but a second's
reflection told him that Hotspur must lie far behind,
and presently, among the blinding rain which fell in cold
sheets, he found himself among some low black cottages.
In the window of one of them was a light, and over the
door, in the darkness, swung an inn sign. He knocked,
and entered the inn kitchen, a trickle of water following
him wherever he went, and, in the tone and with the
look of a sleep-walker, said something about having
been overtaken by a storm during a walk on the moors,
and wanting a night's shelter. The innkeeper and his
wife were evidently too pastoral-minded to reflect that
gentlemen do not usually walk on the fells without
a hat, and in blue silk socks and patent-leather shoes;
and they heaped up the fire, by the side of which
Mr. Little collapsed into an arm-chair, indifferent
to the charms of bacon and beer and hot griddle-cakes.
He tried to settle his ideas. Of what had passed he
knew but this much for certain, that he had opened the
secret door.
The following morning Mr. Little summoned up his
courage, and, after a great argument with himself, turned
his steps toward Hotspur Hall. The day was fresh and
blowy; a delicate blue haze hung over the hills, out of
which, larger and larger, emerged a brilliant blue sky.
In the valley the towers of Hotspur and its tall chimneys
rose among the trees. Soon Mr. Little could see the
bright patches of geranium on the lawn. All this, he
argued with himself, must have been a delusion, a result
of over-psychological study and a thunder-storm upon a
nervous and poetical temperament. He tried to remember
what he had read about delusions in Carpenter's
"Mental Physiology," and about that supposed robbery,
or burglary, which Shelley believed himself to have
witnessed. Mr. Little couldn't remember the details, but
he was pleased it should have been Shelley. He felt
quite foolish and almost happy as he passed through the
rose garden, among the strawberry nets, and in at the
by-entrance of Hotspur. He walked straight into the
dining-room, where he knew the family was assembled
at breakfast, jauntily, and one hand in his pocket.
"Why, Little, where the deuce have you spent the
night?" cried Sir Hugh Hotspur; and the question
was echoed in various forms by the rest of the company.
"Why, Little, have you been in the horse-pond?" cried
young Harry, pointing to his guest's clothes, which,
drenched the previous night, did indeed suggest some
such immersion. Mr. Little did not answer; he felt
himself grow cold and pale, and grasped a chair-back.
In making this rude remark, the heir of Hotspur had
burst into a peal of laughter.
Mr. Little understood; they had found the
mysterious chamber empty, its horror fled; he had really
opened that door; the heir of Hotspur could still
laugh. He explained automatically how he had been
caught by a storm on the fells, and been obliged to
pass the night at a wayside inn; but the whole time,
while he pretended to be eating his breakfast, his brain
was on fire with a thought
"Where had it gone it, the something which he
had let loose?"
That night Mr. Little slept, or rather, as our
ancestors more correctly expressed it, lay, at Hotspur.
For the word sleep was but a mockery. There was a second
storm, and all night the wind howled in the trees, the
drops fell from the eaves, and the room was illumined
by fitful gleams of lightning. It seemed to Mr. Little
that the evil spirit, or whatever else it might be, which
had once been safely locked up in the hidden chamber,
was now loose in the house. On reflection he could not
doubt it: when he had fallen senseless on the stairs,
something had passed out of the door; he had heard and
felt the wind of its passage. It had issued from the
room; it must now be somewhere else, at loose, free to
wreak its will with every flash of lightning. Mr. Little
expected that the solid masonry of Hotspur would catch
fire and bum like a match; with every crash of thunder
he expected that the great peel tower would come
rattling on to the roof. He realized for the first time
the tales of the companions of Ulysses opening the bag
of the winds; of the Arabian fisherman breaking Solomon's
seal on the flask which held the djinn; they no
longer struck him as in the least ridiculous, these stories.
He too had done alike. For, after all, was it not
possible that there existed in Nature forces, beings, unknown
to our ordinary every-day life? Did not all modem
investigations point in that direction, and was it not
possible, then, that by the mercy of Providence such a force
or being, fatal to our weak humanity, might have been
permitted to be inclosed within four wait one family,
or rather, one unhappy member of one family, being
sacrificed for the good of mankind, and facing this terror
alone, that the rest of his kind might not look upon that
ineffable mystery? And now he, in the lawlessness of
his skepticism, had stepped in and opened that sacred
door. . . . He understood now why he had often felt
that he was destined to commit some terrible crime.
Mr. Little sat up in bed, and as the lightning fitfully
lit up the antique furniture of his room, he began
mechanically to mutter some prayers of his childhood,
and some Latin formulae of exorcism which he had
learned at the time of his offering to do the article
"Incubus" for the "Encyclopædia Britannica." What
should he do? Confess to Sir Hugh Hotspur? or to
Sir Hugh's son? He felt terrified at the mere notion;
but he understood that his terror was no mere vulgar
fear of being reprimanded for a gross breach of
hospitality and honor that it was due to the sense that,
having this terrible secret, he had no right to ruin therewith
the lives of innocent men. The Hotspurs would
know but too soon!
Meanwhile Mr. Little felt an imperative need to
confess what he had done, to ask advice and assistance.
He wished for once that he had been able to go over to
Borne that time that Monsignor Tassel had tried to
convert him, instead of being deterred by the oleographs
in Monsignor Tassel's chapel. What would he not give
to kneel down in a confessional, and pour out the
horrible secret through the perforated brass plate!
All of a sudden he jumped out of bed, struck a light,
and dragged his portmanteau into the middle of the
room. He had remembered Esmé St. John, and the
fact that Esmé St. John, his former chum at Oxford,
was working in the slums of Newcastle, not three hours
hence. How could he ever, in the lawless hardness of
his heart, have thought Esmé ridiculous, have actually
tried to reason him out of his High Church asceticism?
This was indeed the just retribution, the fall of the
proud, that he should now seek shelter and peace in
Esmé's spiritual arms, and bring to the man, nay, rather
to the saint, at whom he had once scoffed, a story which
he would himself have once ridiculed as the most childish
piece of superstition. The mere thought of that act
of humiliation did him good; and the terrors of the
night seemed to diminish as Mr. Little stooped over
his portmanteau and folded his clothes with neat but
feverish hands. As soon as it was light, he stole out
of the house, walked to the neighboring village, knocked
up the half-idiotic girl who had charge of the post-office,
and sent off a sixpenny telegram telling the Reverend
Esmé St. John that he would join him at Newcastle
that afternoon.
Mr. Little was rather surprised, and in truth rather
dashed, when he met his old friend. He had spent the
hours in the train framing his confession: a terrible tale
to tell, yet which he felt a sudden disappointment at
being prevented from telling. Prevented he did feel.
He found the Reverend Esmé St. John making a round
among his parishioners; they had told him so at Mr. St.
John's chapel, and he had realized vividly the whole
scene; Esmé, emaciated, hollow-voiced, fresh from Borne
death-bed, leaving the rest of his flock to follow the call
of this pale creature, in whom he would scarcely recognize
an old friend, and the very touch of whose hand
would tell him that things more terrible than death were
at stake. But it was otherwise. After wandering about
various black and grimy slums under the thick black
Newcastle sky, and up various precipitous alleys and
flights of steps strewed with egg-shells and herring-heads,
Mr. Little found his old friend in a back yard
sheltered by the crumbling red roof of "The Musician's
Rest" inn (where the first bars of "Auld Lang Syne"
swung over the door). By his side was a fat, tattered,
but extremely jovial red-haired woman washing in a tub,
and opposite, an unkempt ragamuffin with his hands in
his pockets, singing at the top of his little voice a comic
song in Northumbrian dialect Mr. Esmé St John was
leaning against the doorway, laughing with all his might;
he was fat, bald, had a red face, and a very humorous eye
in fact, did not resemble in the least the
hollow-cheeked, flashing-eyed young fanatic of ten years
before. He stretched out his broad hand to Mr. Little,
and said: "Do listen to this song, it's about the Board
School man it's really too delicious, and the little chap
sings it quite nicely!"
Mr. Little listened, not understanding a word, and
thinking how little this man, laughing over a foolish
song sung by a street-boy, guessed the terrible confession
he was about to receive.
When the song was finished, the Reverend Esmé St.
John took Little's arm, and began to overwhelm him
with futile questions while leading him down the steep
streets of Old Newcastle, until they got to the door of a
large and gorgeous eating-house.
"You must be hungry," said Mr. St. John. "I've
ordered dinner here for a treat, because my old housekeeper, although an excellent creature, does not rise
above mutton chops and boiled potatoes, and one should
do honor to an old friend."
Mr. Little shook his head. "I am not hungry," he
answered, while his friend unfolded his napkin opposite
him. He felt inclined to say, grimly, "When a man
has let loose a mysterious unknown terror that has been
locked up in Hotspur Hall for centuries, he doesn't feel
inclined for roast mutton and Bass's beer."
But the place, the tables, plates, napkins, the smell of
cooking, stopped him, and he felt stopped also by the
face the jovial, red face of his old friend. This was
not the Esmé to whom he had longed to unbosom
himself. And he felt very irritated.
Mr. Little's irritation began to subside when he
followed his friend to his lodgings.
"You asked for a bed, in your telegram," said the
Reverend Esmé St. John, as they left the eating-rooms,
"and I have had a bed put in a spare room of mine,
just to show my hospitable intentions. But I sha'n't be
the least bit offended if you prefer to go to the hotel, my
dear fellow. You see, I think a clergyman, trying to
reclaim the people of these slums, ought to live among
his flock, and no better than they. But there is no
reason why any one else should live in this crazy old
barrack."
They walked, in the twilight, along some precipitous
streets, lined with tinkers' dens and old-clothes shops,
under the high-level bridge, over whose colossal span the
square old castle stood out black against the sky.
Mr. Little crept through a battered wooden gateway,
and picked his way among the puddles, the fallen beams,
and the refuse heaps of a court-yard. A light appeared
at a window.
"Here we are," said Esmé, and they followed an old,
witch-like woman, herself following a thin, black cat, up
some crazy, wooden stairs, and into a suite of low, large
rooms. Mr. St. John held up a lantern. The room in
which they stood was utterly dismantled, the very
wainscoting torn out, the ceiling gaping in rent lath and
plaster. In a comer stood a bed, a crazy chest of drawers,
and washing apparatus, a table, and chair; and in
the next room, where the old woman's light had
preceded them, was a similar bed, a shelf of hooks, a large
black cross nailed to the wall, and a wooden step for
kneeling.
"That's my room," said the clergyman. "You may
have it if you prefer. But here's a fire-place in this one,
so you'd better keep it."
So saying, Mr. St. John applied a match to the fagots,
and the gaunt apartment was flooded with a red
light.
"I must make some arrowroot for an old woman of
mine," said the clergyman, producing a tin can and
saucepan. "May I make it on your fire?"
Mr. Little watched him in silence, then suddenly
said: "Esmé, I thought at first you were changed from
old days, but I see you are still a saint. Alas! I fear it
is I who have changed but too sadly;" and he sighed.
"You are growing too fat," answered Mr. St. John
good-humoredly, but quite missing the fact that this was
the exordium of a confession. Then, to Mr. Little's
annoyance, he asked him leave to carry the arrowroot
to his old woman, who lived in a lane hard by. Mr.
Little remained seated by the fire, while the housekeeper
(since she must be dignified by such a title) unpacked
his portmanteau. Yes, indeed, this was the man to
whom he could make his confession, and this was the
place this dismantled, tumble-down old mansion,
tenanted now only by a few poor bargees' families and by
countless generations of rats. And Mr. Little put
another piece of coal on, in preparation of the nightly
conference he was about to have.
Presently Mr. St. John returned.
"Esmé," said Mr., Little, putting his hand on his
friend's sleeve, "I wish to speak to you."
"About what?" asked Mr. St. John. "It's very
late to begin talking."
"About myself," answered Mr. Little, gravely.
"Do you want anything else? Would you like
some brandy and water, or another pillow? You may
have mine or an additional blanket?" asked his friend.
Mr. Little shook his head, "I have all I want in
the way of material comforts."
"In that case," replied the clergyman, "I shall leave
you at once. If, as you imply, you want spiritual
comforts, you must wait till to-morrow, for I am perfectly
worn out, and have to be up to-morrow at half-past four.
I've been nursing a man from the chemical works these
five nights. Good-night!" and, taking his candle, Mr.
St. John walked into his room, leaving his friend greatly
disconcerted by this want of sympathy.
The following day Mr. Little accompanied his friend
on one of his rounds. After visiting a number of squalid
places, where Mr. Little would certainly have thought
about measles and small-pox had he not been thinking
about the mystery of Hotspur Hall, they returned to
the row of houses, once fashionable mansions, with their
fronts on the river, among which loomed, next to the
black and crumbling former Town Hall, the shell of a
family mansion in which they were lodged.
"This was once the fashionable part of Newcastle,"
said Mr. St. John. "An old lady of ninety once told me
she could remember the time when this street used to be
crowded with coaches and footmen and link boys of a
winter's night. I want to show you my mission-room;
I'm very proud of it."
They entered a black passage, close to an inexpressibly
shabby public-house, and ascended a wide stone
staircase, unswept for ages, as was attested by the
cabbage-stalks and herring-heads which lay about in various
stages of decomposition. On the first landing a rope
was stretched, and a line of clothes, or rather rags,
drying after the wash-tub, formed a picturesque screen
before several open doors, whence issued squealing of
babies, grind of sewing machines, and various unsavory
odors. Mr. St. John unlocked a door and admitted his
friend into a large hall, gracefully decorated with
pastoral stucco moldings, but filled with church seats, and
whose raised extremity, suggestive of the dais for an
orchestra, was occupied by an altar duly appointed according
to ritualistic notions. The place smelt considerably
of stale tobacco and damp straw.
"These were the former assembly rooms," explained
Mr. St. John; "and this, which is now my little chapel
for the lowest scum of Newcastle slums, was once the
ball-room. What would those ladies in hoops and powder
think of the change, I wonder?"
Mr. Little saw his opportunity.
"This place must be haunted," he said. "By-the-way,
Esmé, what are your views on the subject of ghosts
and the supernatural? I should be very interested to
know."
Mr. St. John had locked the door behind them.
"Never mention the word ghost before me," he
exclaimed; "it
drives me perfectly wild to see all the
tomfooling that has been going on of late about apparitions,
haunted houses, secret chambers, and all that blasphemous
rubbish. It is really a retribution of Heaven to see
you agnostic wiseacres taking up such contemptible
twaddle. I'm very sorry to hear that you have been in
correspondence with those people, Little."
"But " objected Mr. Little.
"No buts for me!" cried the Reverend Esmé St.
John, hotly; "I can not conceive how any man of
education and character can fiddle-faddle about idiotic
superstitions which it is the duty of every Christian
and every gentleman to pluck out of the minds of
the vulgar."
It was clear that this was not the moment to
begin a confession about the mysterious room at
Hotspur.
"How surprised he will be," thought Mr. Little
(and a vague sense of satisfaction mingled with the
horror of the thought), "when he hears that I, even I,
the skeptical, antinomian Little, have come in contact
with mysteries more strange and awful than any ever
examined into by any society for psychical research."
Despite his old friend's want of sympathy, Mr.
Decimus Little continued to lodge with the Reverend
Esmé St. John, in the grimy and crumbling old
mansion by the Tyneside, following him about on his
various errands of mercy. "A man situated like me,"
Mr. Little had said to himself, "a great sinner (if you
like the pious formula of former ages), a character
predestined to evil (if you prefer the more modern
phraseology of determinism), does well to live in the
shadow of a truly good man: his saintliness is a bulwark against evil spirits; or, at all events, the sight of
perfect serenity and purity of mind must calm a deeply
troubled spirit." Indeed, he more than once began to
make this remark, in terms even more subtle, to his
friend; but Mr. St. John, whether from fear of Mr.
Little's dialectic power, which might shake some of
his most cherished beliefs, or from some other reason,
invariably turned a deaf ear to all such beginnings
of confession.
But either the serenity of the ritualistic philanthropist
was inadequate to calm a brain so over-excited
or the evil spirits let loose by Mr. Little made short
work of the bulwarks of Esmé's saintliness. The
thought of that opened door began to haunt him like
a nightmare: the effort at guessing what had been
liberated when that door was opened wore out his
energies. Was it a monster a poor, loathsome,
half-human thing, hiding, perhaps lying starving at this
moment, in some corner of the castle: a thing without
mind, or speech, or shape, but endowed with
monstrous strength, starting forth in the night and throttling
the unrightful owner or his young children with stupid
glee? Or, more horrible almost, forcing by its
presence that honorable and kindly old man into crime;
tempting him, with the fear lest this hideousness should
become known to the world, into spilling the blood of
what seemed but a loathly reptile, but might be his
third cousin, or his great-uncle? Mr. Little buried his
face in his pillow at the thought. But it might he
worse still in that room might have been inclosed
some ghastly mediæval plague, some crumbling
long-dead corpse, whose every particle was ready to take
wing and spread forgotten diseases over the country.
Or was it something less tangible, less conceivable a
ghost, a demon, some fearful supernatural evil?
Every morning, when his tea was set down by the
housekeeper upon the rickety table in his dismantled
bedroom, Mr. little would unfold, with trembling
fingers, the local newspaper, half expecting that his eye
would fall upon a notice headed "Hotspur Hall." And
there were moments when he could scarce resist the
impulse of rushing to the station, and buying a ticket
for the village nearest Hotspur.
But a stop was put to such fears about a week
after his arrival at Newcastle; alas! only to be
succeeded by fears much more terrible. Returning home
one day he saw a letter on his table; a presentiment
told him it was about that. Yet he shook all over
when he saw the address on the back of the envelope,
"Hotspur Hall, Northumberland." He sank on to a
chair, and was for some time unable to open the letter.
It was from Sir Hugh Sir Hugh writing to the guest,
the cousin who had betrayed all the sacred laws of
hospitality, to inform him of all the horrors in which his
act had involved an innocent, honorable, and happy
household. Mr. Little groaned, and held the letter unopened. Then suddenly he opened it, tore it open
madly. It ran as follows:
"MY DEAR LITTLE:
I have been too busy of late to
let you know that Edwardes discovered in your room
here, two days after your sudden departure from
Hotspur, a whole outfit which you had apparently forgotten.
It consists of a shirt, a pair of check breeches, two white
ties, a colored silk handkerchief, a sponge, and a razor-strop.
Let us know where you wish all this to be sent.
I write to relieve your mind on the subject, as you have
doubtless missed these valuables. Lady Hotspur and
Harry unite in hoping that you are enjoying yourself,
and that we may see you soon again.
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"Yours, sincerely,
"HUGH NORTH
HOTSPUR.
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"P. S. I may tell you but in strict confidence a
piece of news that will doubtless give you pleasure.
Our Hal is engaged since the day before yesterday to
the Honorable Cynthia Blenkinsop, whom you admired
the evening of the Yeomanry ball. The wedding is for
next May."
What did this mean? They did not suspect him,
that was clear; and nothing terrible had occurred, that
was clear also. What then? Was it possible that . . . .
But Mr. Little's eyes rested on the postscript. Harry
Hotspur engaged to the Honorable Cynthia Blenkinsop:
a marriage between the two hereditary enemies, whose
enmity dated from the time of Chevy Chase! And
there returned to his mind the ancient Northumbrian
prophecy (he could not quite pronounce it in the original),
that as long as the fell is green and the moor is
purple, as long as deer haunt the woods (they don't,
thought Mr. Little) and the seamew the rocks, as long
as the secret door at the Hall remains closed, so long
will never a Hotspur wed a Blenkinsop.
The secret door had been opened, they knew it, and
with its opening the curse had been removed from the
family. The heir might laugh, though he had come of
age (he had laughed at Mr. Little's wet clothes, if you
remember); he might marry a Miss Blenkinsop; the door
had been opened, and he had opened it!
Mr. Little jumped up from his chair and rushed to
his friend's door.
"Esmé," he cried, "we'll dine at the Kafe"(that
being the local pronunciation of the word Café)
"to-night; and here's a sovereign for the poor woman who
broke her leg. . . . Harry Hotspur is going " But
he stopped himself, and when the clergyman opened the
door, astounded at these high spirits, and asking why
this sudden launching into festivities and lavish charities,
he could only answer, "Only a letter I've had from
Sir Hugh Hotspur. It seems it seems I left quite a lot
of things behind; a pair of check trowsers among others.
Quite valuable, you know quite valuable!"
But Mr. Little's happiness nay, self-congratulation
came to a speedy end. That night, as he lay awake,
owing to the unwonted luxury of coffee after dinner, a
thought struck him. If the the thing, the mystery,
the whatever it was, had been liberated from the secret
chamber, as was proved beyond doubt, not only by his
consciousness of having opened the door, but by the
news in Sir Hugh's letter; and if, at the same time, it
had not manifested itself to the inhabitants of the Hall,
as was likewise clearly the case from the cheerful tone in
which the master of Hotspur wrote, why, then what had
become of it? Mr. Little, who believed in the
indestructibility of force, could not have imagined it to have
come to an end; and, if still existing, it must be
somewhere.
At this moment a sound a moan, which made his
blood run cold issued from the darkness of the room.
Mr. Little struck a light. The bare, dismantled room,
with its unwainscoted walls and torn lath ceiling, was
empty, and its bareness admitted of no hiding-place
anywhere.
"It is the wind in the chimney!" he said to himself,
and extinguished his candle.
But the ghastly moan, this time ending in a sort of
gurgling laugh, was repeated, and with it a horrible
thought flashed across Mr. Little's mind: What if that
mysterious something should attach itself to the man
who had disturbed its long seclusion if the Terror of
Hotspur Hall should have fastened upon the rash creature
who had let it loose!
And again there issued from the darkness of that
dismantled room the moan, the gurgling laugh. In
what shape would it reveal itself? Mr. Little, in the
course of his studies, had read M. Maury's "Magie au
Moyen Age"; a similar work by the Rev. Baring
Gould; the valuable "Essay on Superstition in the
Middle Ages," by Dr. Schindler, Royal Prussian Sanitary
Councilor and Man-midwife at Greiffenberg; he had
also once bought the works of Theophrastus Bombastes
of Hohenheim, called "Paracelsus," but found them too
boring to read. So that his mind was well stocked with
alternatives among which a mediæval mystery could
select. His suspicions were one day aroused by a
strange-looking man, dark and grimy, who got on to the Tyne
steamer one evening at Wallsend, kept his hat over his
face and his eyes fixed upon Mr. Little, and then dodged
him up and down Newcastle to the very door of his
house. "Who are you?" suddenly exclaimed Mr. Little,
stopping short and facing him. He half expected
the man to unmask that is, to take off his hat, and,
displaying the face of a corpse, to answer, like the mysterious
stranger in Calderon's play, "I am thyself." But
the man muttered something about its being very hard
on a fellow; that since Mr. St. John had been good to
the wife, he ought also to be good to the husband; that
he had never touched a drop of liquor till after his marriage with that woman he hadn't, etc. Mr. Little
turned away in disgust. On another occasion, his
suspicions were awakened by a large black dog, which
insisted upon following him, and even walked into his
room, but he proved to have his master's address on his
collar, and was consequently sent home next morning.
One day, again, as Mr. Little was leaning out of the
lattice window, looking at the red roofs of Gateshead,
the solitary black church on the green mound,
surrounded by cinder-heaps and chemical refuse, above the
Tyne, his eyes fell upon the gray mass of water which
rolled slowly below him; and it seemed to him as if,
suddenly, in the curl of a heavy-laden wave, he had seen
a face, upturned eyes staring at him. "Pooh!" said
Esmé St. John, whom slumming had made slightly
cynical, "it's only some wretched creature who's drowned
himself. They'll take him up at the next dead-house."
But Mr. Little shook his head: those eyes had looked
at him.
Mr. Little had wondered whether he would be
haunted: he soon began to be so, or very nearly. He
scarcely ventured to enter his room alone, lest he should
find waiting for him, he knew not what; or to approach
his own bed, lest, on raising the sheet, he should find it
already horribly occupied. Every knock made him
start; and it was only by an effort that he could induce
himself to cry "Come in!" to the old woman who
brought him his hot water. But the day was serene
compared with the night. He would lie awake for
hours listening to the sullen lapping of the Tyne under
the windows, to the scurrying of the rats round the
walls, the creaking of broken woodwork in the wind,
the rattling of the incessant trains over the high-level
bridge close by: lie awake breathless, feeling a presence
in the room, but never daring to open his eyes; feeling
it coming nearer and nearer, and at the same time
expanding, filling the place, choking him, yet never daring
to look; until the horrible consciousness would die away
as it had come, and there remain only the sickening terror
it had brought, and the speculations, while listening
to the strokes of the Gateshead clock, as to what the
terror might be. Yet, was it something visible, definable,
or was it merely a vague curse?
"Esmé," said Mr. Little one day, "do you consider
do you consider that a man who knows his life to
be under a curse; well, suppose something like insanity,
you know: but not that nothing really hereditary,
merely a personal thing, a curse, a something making
life quite unbearable to him and every one else do you
think that such a man would have a right to marry?"
Mr. St. John looked at him long and fixedly. "Such
a man, in my humble opinion, ought to have a good
course of iron, or phosphorus, or, best of all, of
whipping, to take down his conceit; and he certainly oughtn't
to get married, unless he knew for certain that the lady
would administer some such treatment to him."
"You have grown very coarse, Esmé!" exclaimed
Mr. Little, "I admit that you do a great deal of good
to others, but I sometimes question whether a man of
refinement by associating wholesale with laundresses and
bargees does much good to himself."
"Very likely not," replied the clergyman, dryly.
"Happily, some men aren't always thinking all day
long whether they are doing good to themselves or
not."
"He is right, all the same, he is right," said Mr.
Little to himself.
Whatever the coarseness of fibre of Mr. St. John,
and his lack of all power of sympathy and intuition,
there was no denying that he had given expression to a
very sound ethical view.
No; a man in the position of Decimus Little must
not marry. He must not drag another life into the
atmosphere of horror with which, in one second of
lawlessness, he had surrounded himself. It was impossible
to conceive a happy home with the mysterious horror of
Hotspur Hall constantly in the background. No; he
must never marry. But had he not foreseen this answer
before putting the question to his friend? Hay, had he
not always felt, long before setting his foot in Hotspur
Hall, that some dark fate would come between him and
happiness; that the joys of wife and children were not
for a creature like him, unreal and lawless, marked for
some strange and horrible destiny? All this had not
been mere silly despondency, or, as his friend Esmé
would have thought, morbid self-importance.
He determined to write to his cousin and break off at
once. But how convey to this charming, buoyant, and
decidedly positivistic and positive young student of
Girton a fact so contrary to all her beliefs and tendencies,
as that an unknown terror, inclosed for centuries in the
secret chamber of a border castle, had suddenly, through
his fault, shunted itself upon him? Mr. Little revolved
the matter in his mind, and found a melancholy little
pleasure in so doing. He determined at last upon
merely telling the young lady that this marriage had
become impossible, and hinting dimly to her that this was
due to no diminution of affection, no want of duty on his
part, but to a terrible and mysterious curse (not insanity,
nor consumption he would underline that) under which
he was laboring, and which forbade his ever sharing a
life which meant unspeakable horror.
Mr. Little sat for a long time before his writing-case,
resting his Chin on his hand, and jotting down half
sentences at intervals.
Yes, he could see it all: the surprise and mystification
of the dear girl, her tears of rage (he knew she
would rage), her feeling of faintness and sickness, her
sudden calling upon her bosom friend, Miss Hopper (the
student of political economy, with the cropped hair and
divided skirts) he had always disliked Miss Hopper, an
unwomanly young person to shed light upon it. And
even Miss Hopper, who, he knew, had once said she was
surprised her Gwendolen could love any man, and least
of all a little, gray-haired muff even Miss Hopper
would have to admit that her friend's unhappy lover
was marvelously magnanimous. And then Gwendolen
would write imploringly to know what had happened;
nay, rather (he knew her well), she would come herself,
arrive at Newcastle, drive to his house, and then there
would be a grand explanation. Esmé St. John would be
present, that would make everything proper, and Esmé
would be so astounded; and Gwendolen would go on her
knees to him and he on his knees to Gwendolen, and
finally they would bid each other farewell, and Esmé
would take her hand, and bid her kiss Decimus, and
then lead her away to the nearest sisterhood, where she
would immediately proceed to turn hospital nurse for the
rest of her days, and wear a lock of Decimus's hair
round her neck under a scapular.
Mr. Little covered his eyes with his hands, and began
to cry. For the first time since opening that door he
felt quite peaceable and pleased with himself.
He was startled by the entrance of Martha, Mr. St.
John's old housekeeper.
"I beg your pardon, sir," she said, making a violent
effort over a strong northern accent, "but would you
mind my dusting a little?"
"Dust away," answered Mr. Little, sadly, implying
that he, too, was dust and ashes.
In a room as scantily furnished as was Mr. Little's,
the operation of dusting would, one might imagine, be
necessarily a brief one; but Martha contrived to prolong
it singularly. She was passing the duster for the fourth
or fifth time over the lid of Mr. Little's portmanteau,
when she suddenly turned round, and said
"I beg your pardon, sir."
"I did not say anything," answered Mr. Little,
gloomily.
"No, sir, no more you did, sir. But I was a-saying,
sir, if as I might take the liberty, sir, as I see but there
was no prying, sir, I assure you, for I'm greatly averse
to prying into folks' concerns, especially the gentry's,
and it was all casual like, as we say. I was a-saying,
sir, seeing how you received a letter from Sir Hugh
Hotspur the other day; if you would just put in a word for
me now as they've got a new butler, for it would indeed
be a charity, let alone all the injustice, to get a body back
into her rights, and a widow, too, as I've been these
fifteen years, and with only a third cousin in the
world."
"My good woman," interrupted Mr. Little, "explain
yourself. I fail to comprehend a word."
"Well, then, sir," proceeded Martha, resuming the
violent efforts to get the better of her Northumbrian
accent, "you should know that I was once in a better
place than this, as good a place as any of them have,
. . . for I was laundress at Hotspur Hall, and a better
laundress you never seed, sir, nor linen better kept than
mine was. And then, as Heaven would have it, on
account of the wickedness of men, I lost my place through
no fault of mine, but merely all along of that room in
the peel tower, the room as is lit from the top and as
has no windows, as perhaps, sir, you know."
"Hush!" cried Mr. Little, with a gesture like that of
a man fainting, "for mercy's sake, woman . . . explain
. . . that room . . . the room on the topmost landing
of the peel tower. . . ."
"Yes, sir, with a door as is hidden in the wall
secret like."
"You opened that door? You were sent away for
opening that door? Answer me for Heaven's sake,
Martha, answer me!" and Mr. Little clutched the old
lady's arm.
"Lor, sir! there was no harm meant. I did not
mean to be prying into other folks' concerns, as I always
says is best left alone. Although there is such as is
always a-prying into everything "
"You opened that door? Yes, or no?"
"Well, yes, sir, I did, as I was a-going to tell you,
sir," cried Martha, terrified at Mr. Little's face, and
trying to extricate her arm from his hand. "I beg your
pardon, sir, as you're a-tearing of my sleeve."
Mr. Little let her go.
"That door the last door in the peel tower, on the
left; a door hidden in the wall; the door of a room
without a window; a room lit from the battlements
above?"
"Yes, sir," answered Martha, beginning to quake all
over; "exactly as you says, sir. The topmost door in
the peel tower, on the left; a door hidden in the wall.
It was all along of opening that, as you says, sir."
"Then, Martha," said Mr. Little, solemnly, sitting
upright, and fixing his eyes on the old woman's, "you
were sent away from Hotspur Hall for opening that
door the door of the secret chamber!"
"Well, sir, it may be called the secret chamber, for
all as I know now, and the butler would have had me
keep it a secret what I saw there, sure enough all them
bottles of wine as he had hidden away to sell to the
'Blue Bull' at Blenkinsop; but of my time there was
no one as had a right to call it a secret room, seeing as it
was the room as we used to put the drying lines in o'
winter, when it was too damp to dry the clothes out of
doors, as maybe it still is, on account of that draught
from the skylight in the roof."
"Enough!" cried Mr. Little. "Woman, not one
word more!"
Visitors at Hotspur Hall still continue to look for
the secret room, to hang out towels from the windows,
and pump the servants, all in vain. Young Harry
Hotspur was never known to laugh quite as much as that
time that Mr. Little appeared at breakfast in the clothes
which he had worn that night on the fell; at least, he
rarely laughed except when he chanced to see Mr. Little.
As to the marriage question, and the difficulty of reconciling
it to the prophecy that so long as the fell was
green and the moor purple, and the deer haunted the
woods and the seamew the rocks, as long as the secret
chamber at Hotspur Hall remained undiscovered, so long
would never a Hotspur wed a Blenkinsop, it might be
interesting to examine into this incongruity in a serious
psychological spirit. Such persons as are destitute of
any taste for serious psychology merely answer to any
objection of the kind, that the Honorable Cynthia
Blenkinsop was possessed not merely of a charming person
but of sixty thousand a year; and that a secret chamber
inhabited by an unspecified horror, although a very
delightful heirloom in an ancient family, is not sufficient
capital in these days of ostentatious living and riotous
luxury. As regards Mr. Decimus little, he is at present
in Turkey, on a trial trip with his cousin Gwendolen and
her mother, which will decide whether or not he shall
be married to her next January by the Reverend Esmé
St. John.