THE AUTOMATON-EAR.
By Florence McLandburgh
(1850-1934)
THE day was hardly different from many
another day, though I will likely recall it even
when the mist of years has shrouded the past
in an undefined hue less cloud. The sunshine
came in at my open window. Out of doors it
flooded all the land in its warm summer light
the spires of the town and the bare college
campus, farther the tall bearded barley and
rustling oats, farther still the wild grass and
the forest, where the river ran and the blue
haze dipped from the sky.
The temptation was greater than I could
stand, and taking my book I shut up the
"study," as the students called my small apartment,
leaving it for one bounded by no walls
or ceiling.
The woods rang with the hum and chirp
of insects and birds. I threw myself down
beneath a tall, broad-spreading tree. Against
its moss-covered trunk I could hear the
loud tap of the wood-pecker secreted high
up among its leaves, and off at the end of
a tender young twig a robin trilled, swinging
himself to and fro through the checkered sunlight.
I never grew weary listening to the
changeful voice of the forest and the river, and
was hardly conscious of reading until I came
upon this paragraph:-
"As a particle of the atmosphere is never
lost, so sound is never lost. A strain of music
or a simple tone will vibrate in the air forever
and ever, decreasing according to a fixed ratio.
The diffusion of the agitation extends in all.
directions, like the waves in a pool, but the
ear is unable to detect it beyond a certain
point. It is well known that some individuals
can distinguish sounds which to others under
precisely similar circumstances are wholly lost.
Thus the fault is not in the sound itself, but
in our organ of hearing, and a tone once in
existence is always in existence."
This was nothing new to me. I had read
it before, though I had never thought of it
particularly; but while I listened to the robin, it
seemed singular to know that all the sounds
ever uttered, ever born, were floating in the
air now all music, every tone, every bird-song
and we, alas I could not hear them.
Suddenly a strange idea shot through my
brain Why not? Ay, why not hear? Men
had constructed instruments which could magnify
to the eye, and was it possible? Why
not?
I looked up and down the river, but saw
neither it nor the sky nor the moss that I
touched. Did the woodpecker still tap
secreted among the leaves, and the robin sing,
and the hum of insects run along the bank
as before? I cannot recollect, I cannot recollect
anything, only Mother Flinse, the deaf and
dumb old crone that occasionally came to beg
and sell nuts to the students, was standing in
the gateway. I nodded to her as I passed,
and walked up her long, slim shadow that lay
on the path. It was a strange idea that had
come so suddenly into my head and startled
me. I hardly dared to think of it, but I could
think of nothing else. It could not be possible,
and yet why not?
Over and over in the restless hours of the
night I asked myself, I said aloud, Why not?
Then I laughed at my folly, and wondered
what I was thinking of, and tried to sleep
but if it could be done?
The idea clung to me. It forced itself up
in class hours and made confusion in the lessons.
Some said the professor was ill those
two or three days before the vacation; perhaps
I was. I scarcely slept; only the one
thought grew stronger Men had done more
wonderful things; it certainly was possible,
and I would accomplish this grand invention
I would construct the king of all instruments
I would construct an instrument which
could catch these faint tones vibrating in the
air and render them audible. Yes, and I
would labor quietly until it was perfected, or
the world might laugh.
The session closed and the college was
deserted, save by the few musty students
which, even in imagination, one could hardly
separate or distinguish from the old books on
the library shelves. I could wish for no better
opportunity to begin my great work.
The first thing would be to prepare for it by
a careful study of acoustics, and I buried
myself among volumes on the philosophy of
sound.
I went down to London and purchased a
common ear-trumpet. My own ear was exceedingly
acute, and to my great delight I
found that, with the aid of the trumpet just as
it was, I could distinguish sounds at a much
greater distance, and those nearer were magnified
in power. I had only to improve upon
this instrument; careful study, careful work,
careful experiment, and my hopes would undoubtedly
be realized.
Back to my old room in the college I went
with a complete set of tools. So days and
weeks I shut myself in, and every day and
every week brought nothing but disappointment.
The instrument seemed only to
diminish sound rather than increase it, yet
still I worked on and vowed I would not
grow discouraged.
Hour after hour I sat looking out of my
narrow window. The fields of barley and
waving oats had been reaped, the wheat too
had ripened and gone, but I did not notice.
I sprang up with a joyful exclamation
Strange never to have thought of it before!
Perhaps I had not spent my time in vain,
after all. How could I expect to test my instrument
in this close room with only that
little window? It should be removed from
immediate noises, high up in the open air,
where there would be no obstructions. I
would never succeed here but where should
I go? It must be some place in which I
would never be liable to interruption, for my
first object was to be shielded and work in
secret.
I scoured the neighborhood for an appropriate
spot without success, when it occurred
to me that I had heard some one say the old
gray church was shut up. This church was
situated just beyond the suburbs of the town.
It was built of rough stone, mottled and
stained by unknown years. The high square
tower, covered by thick vines that clung and
crept round its base, was the most venerable
monument among all the slabs and tombs
where it stood sentinel. Only graves deserted
and uncared for by the living kept it company.
People said the place was too damp
for use, and talked of rebuilding, but it had
never been done. Now if I could gain
access to the tower, that was the very place
for my purpose.
I found the doors securely fastened, and
walked round and round without discovering
any way of entrance; but I made up my mind,
if it were possible. to get inside of that church
I would do it, and without the help of keys.
The high windows were not to be thought of;
but in the rear of the building, lower down,
where the fuel had probably been kept, there
was a narrow opening which was boarded
across. With very little difficulty I knocked
out the planks and crept through. It was a
cellar, and, as I had anticipated, the coal receptacle.
After feeling around, I found a few
rough steps which led to a door that was unlocked
and communicated with the passage
back of the vestry-room. The tower I wished
to explore was situated in the remote comer
of the building. I passed on to the church.
Its walls were discolored by green mould and
blackened where the water had dripped
through. The sun, low down in the sky, lit
the tall arched windows on the west, and
made yellow strips across the long aisles;
over the faded pews with their stiff, straight
backs, over the chancel rail, over the altar
with its somber wood-work; but there was
no warmth; only the cheerless glare seemed
to penetrate the cold dead atmosphere, only
the cheerless glare without sparkle, without
life, came into that voiceless sanctuary where
the organ slept. At the right of the vestibule
a staircase led to the tower; it ascended
to a platform laid on a level with the four
windows and a little above the point of the
church roof. These four windows were situated
one on each side of the tower, running
high up, and the lower casement folding inward.
Here was my place. Above the tree-tops,
in the free open air, with no obstacle to obstruct
the wind, I could work unmolested by
people or noise. The fresh breeze that fanned
my face was cool and pleasant. An hour
ago I had been tired, disappointed, and
depressed; but now, buoyant with hope, I was
ready to begin work again work that I was
determined to accomplish.
The sun had gone. I did not see the
broken slabs and urns in the shadow down
below; I did not see the sunken graves and
the rank grass and the briers. I looked over
them and saw the gorgeous fringes along the
horizon, scarlet and gold and pearl; saw them
quiver and brighten to flame, and the white
wings of pigeons whirl and circle in the
deepening glow.
I closed the windows, and when I had
crawled out at the narrow hole, carefully
reset the boards just as I had found them.
In another day all the tools and books that I
considered necessary were safely deposited
in the tower. I only intended to make this
my workshop, still, of course, occupying my
old room in the college.
Here I matured plan after plan. I studied,
read, worked, knowing, feeling that at last I
must succeed; but failure followed failure, and
I sank into despondency only to begin again
with a kind of desperation. When I went
down to London and wandered about, hunting
up different metals and hard woods, I never
entered a concert-room or an opera-house.
Was there not music in store for me, such as
no mortal ear had ever heard? All the
music, every strain that had sounded in the past
ages? Ah, I could wait; I would work
patiently and wait.
I was laboring now upon a theory that I
had not tried heretofore. It was my last resource;
if this failed, then but it would not
fail. I resolved not to make any test, not to
put it near my ear until it was completed.
I discarded all woods and used only the metals
which best transmitted sound. Finally
it was finished, even to the ivory ear-piece.
I held the instrument all ready I held it and
looked eastward and westward and back
again. Suddenly all control over the muscles
of my hand was gone, it felt like stone; then
the strange sensation passed away. I stood
up and lifted the trumpet to my ear What!
silence? No, no I was faint, my brain was
confused, whirling. I would not believe it;
I would wait a moment until this dizziness
was gone, and then then I would be able to
hear. I was deaf now. I still held the instrument;
in my agitation the ivory tip shook off
and rolled down rattling on the floor. I gazed
at it mechanically as if it had been a pebble;
I never thought of replacing it, and
mechanically I raised the trumpet a second time
to my ear. A crash of discordant sounds, a
confused jarring noise broke upon me and I
drew back trembling, dismayed. Fool! O
fool of fools never to have thought of this,
which a child, a dunce would not have over.
looked! My great invention was nothing,
was worse than nothing, was worse than a
failure. I might have known that my instrument would magnify present sounds in the
air to such a degree as to make them utterly
drown all others, and, clashing together, produce
this noise like the heavy rumble of
thunder.
The college reopened and I took up my
old line of duties, or at least attempted them,
for the school had grown distasteful to me.
I was restless, moody, and discontented. I
tried to forget my disappointment, but the effort
was vain.
The spires of the town and the college
campus glittered white, the fields of barley
and oats were fields of snow, the forest leaves
had withered and fallen, and the river slumbered,
wrapped in a sheeting of ice. Still I
brooded over my failure, and when again the
wild grass turned green I no longer cared.
I was not the same man that had looked out
at the waving grain and the blue haze only
a year before. A gloomy despondency had
settled upon me, and I grew to hate the students,
to hate the college, to hate society.
In the first shock of discovered failure I had
given up all hope, and the winter passed I
knew not how. I never wondered if the trouble
could be remedied. Now it suddenly occurred
to me, perhaps it was no failure after
all. The instrument might be made adjustable,
so as to be sensible to faint or severe vibrations
at pleasure of the operator, and thus
separate the sounds. I remembered how but
for the accidental removal of the ivory my instrument
perhaps would not have reflected
any sound. I would work again and persevere.
I would have resigned my professorship,
only it might create suspicion. I knew not
that already they viewed me with curious
eyes and sober faces. When the session
finally closed, they tried to persuade me to
leave the college during vacation and travel
on the continent. I would feel much fresher,
they told me, in the fall. In the fall? Ay,
perhaps I might, perhaps I might, and I
would not go abroad.
Once more the reapers came unnoticed.
My work progressed slowly. Day by day I
toiled up in the old church-tower, and night
by night I dreamed. In my sleep it often
seemed that the instrument was suddenly
completed, but before I could raise it to my
ear I would always waken with a nervous
start. So the feverish time went by, and at
last I held it ready for a second trial. Now
the instrument was adjustable, and I had also
improved it so far as to be able to set it very
accurately for any particular period, thus
rendering it sensible only to sounds of that
time, all heavier and fainter vibrations being
excluded.
I drew it out almost to its limits.
All the maddening doubts that had haunted
me like grinning specters died. I felt no
tremor, my hand was steady, my pulse-beat
regular.
The soft breeze had fallen away. No leaf
stirred in the quiet that seemed to a wait my
triumph. Again the crimson splendor of sunset
illumined the western sky and made a
glory overhead-and the dusk was thickening
down below among the mouldering slabs.
But that mattered not.
I raised the trumpet to my ear.
Hark! The hum of mighty hosts! It
rose and fell, fainter and more faint; then the
murmur of water was heard and lost again, as
it swelled and gathered and burst in one
grand volume of sound like a hallelujah from
myriad lips. Out of the resounding echo,
out of the dying cadence a single female
voice arose. Clear, pure, rich, it soared
above the tumult of the host that hushed
itself, a living thing. Higher, sweeter, it
seemed to break the fetters of mortality and
tremble in sublime adoration before the Infinite.
My breath stilled with awe. Was it a
spirit-voice one of the glittering host in
the jasper city "that had no need of the sun,
neither of the moon to shine in it?" And
the water, was it the river clear as crystal
flowing from the great white throne? But
no! The tone now floated out soft, sad,
human. There was no sorrowful strain in
that nightless land where the leaves of the
trees were for the healing of the nations.
The beautiful voice was of the. earth and
sin-stricken. From the sobbing that mingled
with the faint ripple of water it went up once
more, ringing gladly, joyfully; it went up inspired
with praise to the sky, and hark!
the Hebrew tongue:-
"The horse and his rider hath he thrown
into the sea."
Then the noise of the multitude swelled
again and a clash of music broke forth from
innumerable timbrels. I raised my head
quickly it was the song of Miriam after the
passage of the Red Sea.
I knew not whether I lived.
I bent my ear eagerly to the instrument
again and heard the soft rustle, the breathing
as of a sleeping forest. A plaintive note
stole gently out, more solemn and quiet than
the chant of the leaves. The mournful lay,
forlorn, frightened, trembled on the air like
the piteous wail of some wounded creature.
Then it grew stronger. Clear! brilliant, it
burst in a shower of silver sounds like a
whole choir of birds in the glitter of the tropical
sunlight. But the mournful wail crept
back, and the lonely heart-broken strain was
lost, while the leaves still whispered to one
another in the midnight.
Like the light of a distant star came to me
this song of some nightingale, thousands of
years after the bird had mouldered to nothing.
At last my labor had been rewarded, As
sound travels in waves and these waves are
continually advancing they go round and
round the world, therefore I would never
hear the same sound over again at the same
time, but it passed beyond and another came
in its stead.
All night I listened with my ear pressed to
the instrument. I heard the polished,
well-studied compliments, the rustle of silks, and
the quick music of the dance at some banquet.
I could almost see the brilliant robes
and glittering jewels of the waltzers, and
the sheen of light, and the mirrors. But
hush! a cry, a stifled moan. Was that at the
– No, the music and the rustle of silk were
gone.
"Mother, put your hand here, I am tired,
and my head feels hot and strange. Is it
night, already, that it has grown so dark? I
am resting now, for my book is almost done,
and then, mother, we can go back to the dear
old home where the sun shines so bright and
the honeysuckles are heavy with perfume.
And, mother, we will never be poor any more.
I know you are weary, for your cheeks are
pale and your fingers are thin; but they shall
not touch a needle then, and you will grow better,
mother, and we will forget these long, long,
bitter years. I will not write in the evenings
then, but sit with you and watch the twilight
fade as we used to do, and listen to the murmur
of the frogs. I described the little
stream, our little stream, mother, in my book.
Hark! I hear the splash of its waves now.
Hold me by the hand tight, mother. I am
tired, but we are almost there. See! the
house glimmers white through the trees, and
the red bird has built its nest again in the
cedar. Put your arm around me, mother,
mother "
Then single, echoless, the mother's piercing
cry went up "O my God!"
Great Heaven! It would not always be
music that I should hear. Into this ear, where
all the world poured its tales, sorrow and suffering
and death would come in turn with mirth
and gladness.
I listened again. The long-drawn ahoy
ahoy of the sailor rang out in slumbrous
musical monotone, now free, now muffled
gone. The gleeful laugh of children at
then the drunken boisterous shout of the
midnight reveler What was that? A chime of
bells, strange, sublime, swimming in the air
they made a cold, solemn harmony. But even
over them dashed the storm-blast of passion
that sweeps continually up and down the earth,
and the harmony that bound them in peace
broke up in a wild, angry clamor, that set loose
shrill screams which were swallowed up in
savage tumult of discord, like a mad carnival
of yelling demons. Then, as if terrified by their
own fiendish rage, they retreated shivering,
remorseful, and hushed themselves in hoarse
whispers about the gray belfry. It was
the Carillonneur, Matthias Vander Gheyn,
playing at Louvain on the first of July,
1745.
Yes, my invention had proved a grand success.
I had worked and worked in order to
give this instrument to the world; but now
when it was finished, strange to say, all my
ambition, all my desire for fame left me, and
I was anxious only to guard it from discovery,
to keep it secret, to keep it more jealously
than a miser hoards his gold. An undefinable
delight filled my soul that I alone out of all
humanity possessed this treasure, this great
Ear of the World, for which kings might have
given up their thrones. Ah! they dreamed
not of the wonders I could relate. It was a
keen, intense pleasure to see the public for
which I had toiled live on, deaf forever save
to the few transient sounds of the moment,
while I, their slave, reveled in another world
above, beyond theirs. But they should never
have this instrument; no, not for kingdoms
would I give it up, not for life itself.
It exerted a strange fascination over me, and
in my eager desire to preserve my secret a
tormenting fear suddenly took possession
me that some one might track me to the tower
and discover all. It seemed as if the people
looked after me with curious faces as I
passed. I went no longer on the main road
that led to the church, but, when I left my
room, took an opposite direction until out
sight, and then made a circuit across the fields.
I lived in a continual fear of betraying myself,
so that at night I closed my window and
door lest I might talk aloud in my sleep. I
could never again bear the irksome duties
my office, and when the college reopened I
gave up my situation and took lodgings in
town. Still the dread of detection haunted
me. Every day I varied my route to the
church, and every day the people seemed to
stare at me with a more curious gaze.
Occasionally some of my old pupils came to visit
me, but they appeared constrained in my
presence and were soon gone. However, no
one seemed to suspect my secret; perhaps all
this was merely the work of my imagination,
for I had grown watchful and reticent.
I hardly ate or slept. I lived perpetually
in the past listening to the echoing song of
the Alpine shepherd; the rich, uncultivated
soprano of the Southern slave making strange
wild melody. I heard grand organ fugues
rolling, sweeping over multitudes that kneeled
in awe, while a choir of voices broke into a
gloria that seemed to sway the great cathedral.
The thrilling artistic voices of the far past
rang again, making my listening soul tremble
in their magnificent harmony. It was music
of which we could not dream.
Then suddenly I determined to try the
opera once more; perhaps I was prejudiced:
I had not been inside of a concert-room for
more than a year.
I went down to London. It was just at
the opening of the fall season. I could
hardly wait that evening until the curtain rose;
the orchestra was harsh and discordant, the
house hot and disagreeable, the gas painfully
bright. My restlessness had acquired a
feverish pitch before the prima donna made
her appearance. Surely that voice was not
the one before which the world bowed!
Malibran's song stood out in my memory
defined and complete, like a magnificent
cathedral of pure marble, with faultless
arches and skillfully chiseled carvings, where
the minarets rose from wreaths of lilies and
vine-leaves cut in bas-relief, and the slender
spire shot high, glittering yellow in the
upper sunlight, its golden arrow, burning like
pointing towards the East. But this
prima donna built only a flat, clumsy structure
of wood ornamented by gaudily painted
lattice. I left the opera amid the deafening
applause of the audience with a smile of scorn,
upon my lips. Poor deluded creatures! they
knew nothing of music, they knew not what
they were doing.
I went to St. Paul's on the Sabbath. There
was no worship in the operatic voluntary sung
by hired voices; it did not stir my soul, and
their cold hymns did not warm with praise to
the Divine Creator, or sway the vast pulseless
congregation that came and went without
one quickened breath.
All this time I felt a singular, inexpressible
pleasure in the consciousness of my great
secret, and I hurried back with eager haste.
In London I had accidentally met two or
three of my old acquaintances. I was not over
glad to see them myself: as I have said, I had
grown utterly indifferent to society; but I
almost felt ashamed when they offered me every
attention within their power, for I had not
anticipated it, nor was it deserved on my
part. Now, when I returned, everybody in
the street stopped to shake hands with me
and inquire for my health. At first, although
I was surprised at the interest they manifested,
I took it merely as the common civility
on meeting, but when the question was repeated
so particularly by each one, I thought it
appeared strange, and asked if they had ever
heard to the contrary; no, oh no, they said,
but still I was astonished at the unusual care
with which they all made the same inquiry.
I went up to my room and walked directly to
the glass. It was the first time I had consciously
looked into a mirror for many weeks.
Good Heavens! The mystery was explained
now. I could hardly recognize myself. At
first the shock was so great that I stood gazing,
almost petrified. The demon of typhus
fever could not have wrought a more terrific
change in my face if he had held it in his
clutches for months. My hair hung in long
straggling locks around my neck. I was
thin and fearfully haggard. My eyes, sunken
far back in my head, looked out from dark
deep hollows; my heavy black eyebrows were
knit together by wrinkles that made seams
over my forehead; my fleshless cheeks clung
tight to the bone, and a bright red spot on either
one was half covered by thick beard. I had
thought so little about my personal appearance
lately that I had utterly neglected my
hair, and I wondered now that it had given
me no annoyance. I smiled while I still
looked at myself. This was the effect of the
severe study and loss of sleep, and the excitement
under which I had labored for months,
yes, for more than a year. I had not been
conscious of fatigue, but my work was done
now and I would soon regain my usual weight.
I submitted myself immediately to the hands
of a barber, dressed with considerable care,
and took another look in the glass. My face
appeared pinched and small since it had been
freed from beard. The caverns around my
eyes seemed even larger, and the bright color
in my cheeks contrasted strangely with the
extremely sallow tint of my complexion. I
turned away with an uncomfortable feeling,
and started on a circuitous route to the church,
for I never trusted my instrument in any other
place.
It was a sober fall day. Everything
looked dreary with that cold, gray, sunless sky
stretched overhead. The half-naked trees
shivered a little in their seared garments of
ragged leaves. Occasionally a cat walked
along the fence-top, or stood trembling on
three legs. Sometimes a depressed bird suddenly
tried to cheer its drooping spirits and
uttered a few sharp, discontented chirps.
Just in front of me two boys were playing
ball on the road-side. As I passed I
accidentally caught this sentence:
"They say the professor ain't just right in
his head."
For a moment l stood rooted to the
ground; then wheeled round and cried out
fiercely.
"What did you say?"
"Sir?"
"What was that you said just now?" I repeated
still more fiercely.
The terrified boys looked at me an instant,
then without answering turned and ran as fast
as fright could carry them.
So the mystery now was really explained!
It was not sick the people thought me, but
crazy. I walked on with a queer feeling
and began vaguely to wonder why I had been
so savage to those boys. The fact which I
had learned so suddenly certainly gave me a
shock, but it was nothing to me. What did I
care, even if the people did think me crazy?
Ah! perhaps if I told my secret they would
consider it a desperate case of insanity. But
the child's words kept ringing in my ears until
an idea flashed upon me more terrifying
than death itself. How did I know that I
was not insane? How did I know but that
my great invention might be only an hallucination
of my brain? Instantly a whole army
of thoughts crowded up like ghostly witnesses
to affright me. I had studied myself to a
shadow; my pallid face, with the red spots on the
cheeks and the blue hollows around the eyes,
came before my mental vision afresh. The
fever in my veins told me I was unnaturally
excited. I had not slept a sound, dreamless
sleep for weeks. Perhaps in the long, long
days and nights my brain, like my body, had
been over-wrought; perhaps in my eager desire
to succeed, in my desperate determination,
the power of my will had disordered my
mind, and it was all deception: the sounds, the
music I had heard, merely the creation of my
diseased fancy, and the instrument I had handled
useless metal. The very idea was inexpressible
torture to me. I could not bear
that a single doubt of its reality should exist:
but, after once entering my head, how would I
ever be able to free myself from distrust? I
could not do it; I would be obliged to live
always in uncertainty. It was maddening:
now I felt as if I might have struck the child
in my rage if I could have found him. Then
suddenly it occurred to me for the first time
that my invention could easily be tested by
some other person. Almost instantly I rejected
the thought, for it would compel me to
betray my secret, and in my strange infatuation
I would rather have destroyed the instrument.
But the doubts of my sanity on this subject
returned upon me with tenfold strength, and
again I thought in despair of the only method
left me by which they could ever be settled.
In the first shock, when the unlucky sentence
fell upon my ear, I had turned after the
boys, and then walked on mechanically
towards the town. Now, when I looked up I
found myself almost at the college gate. No
one was to be seen, only Mother Flinse with
her basket on her arm was just raising the
latch. Half bewildered, I turned hastily
round and bent my steps in the direction of
my lodgings, while I absently wondered
whether that old woman had stood there ever
since, since when? I did not recollect,
but her shadow was long and slim no, there
were no shadows this afternoon; it was sunless.
As I reached the stairs leading to my
room, my trouble, which I had forgotten for
the moment, broke upon me anew. I dragged
myself up and sat down utterly overwhelmed.
As I have said, I would sooner destroy the
instrument than give it to a thankless world;
but to endure the torturing doubt of its reality
was impossible. Suddenly it occurred to
me that Mother Flinse was mute. I might
get her to test my invention without fear of
betrayal, for she could neither speak nor write,
and her signs on this subject, if she attempted
to explain, would be altogether unintelligible
to others. I sprang up in wild delight, then
immediately fell back in my chair with a
hoarse laugh Mother Flinse was deaf as
well as dumb. I had not remembered that.
I sat quietly a moment trying to calm myself
and think. Why need this make any difference?
The instrument ought to, at least it
was possible that it might, remedy loss of
hearing. I too was deaf to these sounds in the
air that it made audible. They would have
to be magnified to a greater degree for her.
I might set it for the present and use the full
power of the instrument: there certainly
would be no harm in trying, at any rate, and
if it failed it would prove nothing, if it did
not fail it would prove everything. Then a
new difficulty presented itself. How could
I entice the old woman into the church?
I went back towards the college expecting
to find her, but she was nowhere to be seen,
and I smiled that only a few moments ago I
had wondered if she did not always stand in
the gateway. Once, I could not exactly recall
the time, I had passed her hut. I remembered
distinctly that there was a line full
of old ragged clothes stretched across from
the fence to a decayed tree, and a bright red
flannel petticoat blew and flapped among the
blackened branches. It was a miserable
frame shanty, set back from the Spring road,
about half a mile out of town. There I went
in search of her.
The blasted tree stood out in bold relief
against the drab sky. There appeared no
living thing about the dirty, besmoked hovel
except one lean rat, that squatted with quivering
nose and stared a moment, then retreated
under the loose plank before the door,
leaving its smellers visible until I stepped
upon the board. I knocked loudly
without receiving any reply; then, smiling
at the useless ceremony I had performed,
pushed it open. The old woman, dressed
in her red petticoat and a torn calico
frock, with a faded shawl drawn over her head,
was standing with her back towards me, picking
over a pile of rags. She did not move.
I hesitated an instant, then walked in. The
moment I put my foot upon the floor she
sprang quickly round. At first she remained
motionless, with her small, piercing gray eyes
fixed upon me, holding a piece of orange-and-black
spotted muslin; evidently she recognized
me, for, suddenly dropping it, she began
a series of wild gestures, grinning until all
the wrinkles of her skinny face converged
in the region of her mouth, where a few
scattered teeth, long and sharp, gleamed
strangely white. A rim of grizzled hair stood
out round the edge of the turbaned shawl
and set off the withered and watchful
countenance of the speechless old crone. The
yellow, shriveled skin hung loosely about her
slim neck like leather, and her knotted hands
were brown and dry as the claws of an eagle.
I went through the motion of sweeping
and pointed over my shoulder, making her
understand that I wished her to do some
cleaning. She drew the seams of her face
into a new grimace by way of assent, and,
putting the piece of orange-and-black spotted
muslin around her shoulders in lieu of a
cloak, preceded me out of the door. She
started immediately in the direction of the
college, and I was obliged to take hold of
her before I could attract her attention; then,
when I shook my head, she regarded me in
surprise, and fell once more into a series of
frantic gesticulations. With considerable
trouble I made her comprehend that sh
was merely to follow me. The old woman
was by no means dull, and her small,
steel-gray eyes had a singular sharpness about
them that is only found in the deaf-mute,
where they perform the part of the ear and
tongue. As soon as we came in sight of the
church she was perfectly satisfied. I walked
up to the main entrance, turned the knob
and shook it, then suddenly felt in all my
pockets, shook the door over, and felt through
all my pockets again. This hypocritical
pantomime had the desired effect. The old
beldam slapped her hands together and poked
her lean finger at the hole of the lock,
apparently amused that I had forgotten the
key. Then of her own accord she went
round and tried the other doors, but without
success. As we passed the narrow window
in the rear I made a violent effort in knocking
out the loose boards. The old woman
seemed greatly delighted, and when I crawled
through willingly followed. I gave her a
brush, which fortunately one day I had
discovered lying in the vestibule, and left her
in the church to dust, while I went up in the
tower to prepare and remove from sight all
the tools which were scattered about I put
them in a recess and screened it from view
by a map of the Holy Land. Then I took
my instrument and carefully adjusted it, putting
on its utmost power.
In about an hour I went down and motioned
to Mother Flinse that I wanted her up stairs.
She came directly after me without hesitation,
and I felt greatly relieved, for I saw that I
would likely have no trouble with the old
woman. When we got into the tower she
pointed down to the trees and then upward,
meaning, I presume, that it was high. I nodded,
and taking the instrument placed my ear
to it for a moment. A loud blast of music,
like a dozen bands playing in concert, almost
stunned me. She watched me very attentively,
but when I made signs for her to come and
try she drew back. I held up the instrument
and went through all manner of motions indicating
that it would not hurt her, but she only
shook her head. I persevered in my endeavor
to coax her until she seemed to gain courage
and walked up within a few feet of me, then
suddenly stopped and stretched out her hands
for the instrument. As she did not seem
afraid, provided she had it herself, I saw that
she took firm hold. In my impatience to
know the result of this experiment, I was obliged
to repeat my signs again and again before
I could prevail upon her to raise it to her ear.
Then breathlessly I watched her face, a face
I thought which looked as if it might belong to
some mummy that had been withering for a
thousand years. Suddenly it was convulsed
as if by a galvanic shock, then the shriveled
features seemed to dilate, and a great light
flashed through them, transforming them
almost into the radiance of youth; a strange
light as of some seraph had taken possession
of the wrinkled old frame and looked out at
the gray eyes, making them shine with unnatural
beauty. No wonder the dumb countenance
reflected a brightness inexpressible,
for the Spirit of Sound had just alighted with
silvery wings upon a silence of seventy years.
A heavy weight fell unconsciously from my
breast while I stood almost awed before this
face, which was transfigured as if it might
have caught a glimmer of that mystical morn
when in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye,
we shall all be changed.
My instrument had stood the test; it was
proved forever. I could no longer cherish
any doubts of its reality, and an indescribable
peace come into my soul, like a sudden awakening
from some frightful dream. I had not
noticed the flight of time. A pale shadow
hung already over the trees yes, and under
them on the slime-covered stones. Ay! and
a heavier shadow than the coming night was
even then gathering unseen its rayless folds.
The drab sky had blanched and broken, and
the sinking sun poured a fading light through
its ragged fissures.
The old woman, as if wrapped in an enchantment,
had hardly moved. I tried vainly
to catch her attention; she did not even
appear conscious of my presence. I walked
up and shook her gently by the shoulder, and,
pointing to the setting sun, held out my hand
for the instrument. She looked at me a moment,
with the singular unearthly beauty
shining through every feature; then suddenly
clutching the trumpet tight between her
skinny claws, sprang backward towards the
stairs, uttering a sound that was neither human
nor animal, that was not a wail or a
scream, but it fell upon my ears like some
palpable horror. Merciful Heaven! Was
that thing yonder a woman? The shriveled,
fleshless lips gaped apart, and a small pointed
tongue lurked behind five glittering, fang-like
teeth. The wild beast had suddenly
been developed in the hag. Like a hungry
tigress defending its prey, she stood hugging
the trumpet to her, glaring at me with stretched
neck and green eyes.
A savage fierceness roused within me when
I found she would not give up the instrument.
and I rushed at her with hands ready to
snatch back the prize I valued more than my
life or hers; but, quicker than a hunted animal,
she turned and fled with it down the
stairs, making the tower ring with the hideous
cries of her wordless voice. Swiftly it seemed
as if the danger of losing the trumpet
gave me wings to fly in pursuit I crossed the
vestibule. She was not there. Everything
was silent, and I darted with fleet steps down
the dusky aisle of the church, when suddenly
the jarring idiotic sounds broke loose again,
echoing up in the organ-pipes and rattling along
the galleries. The fiend sprang from behind
the altar, faced about an instant with flashing
eyes and gleaming teeth, then fled through
the vestry-room into the passage. The sight
of her was fresh fuel to my rage, and it flamed
into a frenzy that seemed to burn the human
element out of my soul. When I gained the
steps leading into the coal-room she was already
in the window, but I cleared the distance
at a single bound and caught hold of
her clothes as she leaped down. I crawled
through, but she clutched the instrument
tighter. I could not prize it out of her grasp;
and in her ineffectual efforts to free herself
from my hold she made loud, grating cries,
that seemed to me rang and reverberated all
through the forest; but presently they grew
smothered, gurgled, then ceased. Her clasp
relaxed in a convulsive struggle, and the trumpet
was in my possession. It was easily done,
for her neck was small and lean, and my hands
made a circle strong as a steel band.
The tremor died out of her frame and left
it perfectly still. Through the silence I
could hear the hiss of a snake in the
nettle-weeds, and the flapping wings of some night
bird fanned my face as it rushed swiftly
through the air in its low flight. The gray
twilight had deepened to gloom and the
graves seemed to have given up their tenants.
The pale monuments stood out like shrouded
specters. But all the dead in that churchyard
were not under ground, for on the wet
grass at my feet there was something
stark and stiff, more frightful than any phantom
of imagination something that the daylight
would not rob of its ghastly features.
It must be put out of sight, yes, it must be
hid, to save my invention from discovery.
The old hag might be missed, and if she was
found here it would ruin me and expose my
secret. I placed the trumpet on the window-ledge,
and, carrying the grim burden in my
arms, plunged into the damp tangle of weeds
and grass.
In a lonesome corner far back from the
church, in the dense shade of thorn-trees,
among the wild brambles where poisonous
vines gray, slippery with the mould of forgotten
years, unsought, uncared for by any
human hand, was a tomb. Its sides were
half buried in the tall under-brush, and the
long slab had been broken once, for a black
fissure ran zigzag across the middle. In my
muscles that night there was the strength of
two men. I lifted off one-half of the stone
and heard the lizards dart startled from their
haunt, and felt the spiders crawl. When the
stone was replaced it covered more than the
lizards or the spiders in the dark space between
the narrow walls.
As I have said, the instrument possessed a
singular fascination over me. I had grown
to love it, not alone as a piece of mechanism
for the transmission of sound, but like a living
thing, and I replaced it in the tower with the
same pleasure one feels who has rescued a
friend from death. My listening ear never
grew weary, but now I drew quickly away.
It was not music I heard, or the ripple of
water, or the prattle of merry tongues, but
the harsh grating cries that had echoed in the
church, that had rattled and died out in the
forest that voice which was not a voice.
I shivered while I readjusted the instrument:
perhaps it was the night wind which chilled
me, but the rasping sounds were louder than
before. I could not exclude them. There
was no element of superstition in my nature,
and I tried it over again: still I heard them
sometimes sharp, sometimes only a faint
rumbling. Had the soul of the deaf-mute
come in retribution to haunt me and cry
eternally in my instrument? Perhaps on
the morrow it would not disturb me, but there
was no difference. I could hear only it,
though I drew out the trumpet for vibrations
hundreds of years old. I had rid myself of
the withered wretch who would have stolen
my treasure, but now I could not rid myself
of her invisible ghost. She had conquered,
even through death, and come from the spirit
world to gain possession of the prize for which
she had given up her life. The instrument
was no longer of any value to me, though
cherishing a vague hope I compelled myself
to listen, even with chattering teeth; for it was
a terrible thing to hear these hoarse, haunting
cries of the dumb soul of the soul I had
strangled from its body, a soul which I would
have killed itself if it were possible. But my
hope was vain, and the trumpet had become
not only worthless to me, but an absolute horror.
Suddenly I determined to destroy it. I
turned it over ready to dash it in pieces, but
it cost me a struggle to crush this work of
my life, and while I stood irresolute a small
green and gold beetle crawled out of it and
dropped like a stone to the floor. The insect
was an electric flash to me, that dispelled
the black gloom through which I had been
battling. It had likely fallen into the instrument
down in the church-yard, or when I
laid it upon the window-sill, and the rasping
of its wings, magnified, had produced the
sounds which resembled the strange grating
noise uttered by the deaf-mute.
Instantly I put the trumpet to my ear.
Once more the music of the past surged in.
Voices, leaves, water, all murmured to me their
changeful melody; every zephyr wafting by
was filled with broken but melodious whispers.
Relieved from doubts, relieved from fears
and threatening dangers, I slept peacefully,
dreamlessly as a child. With a feeling of
rest to which I had long been unused, I
walked out in the soft clear morning. Everything
seemed to have put on new life, for the
sky was not gray or sober, and the leaves, i£
they were brown, trimmed their edges in scarlet,
and if many had fallen, the squirrels played
among them on the ground. But suddenly
the sky and the leaves and the squirrels
might have been blotted from existence. I
did not see them, but I saw I saw Mother
Flinse come through the college gateway and
walk slowly down the road!
The large faded shawl pinned across her
shoulders nearly covered the red flannel petticoat, and the orange-and-black spotted
muslin was wrapped into a turban on her head.
Without breathing, almost without feeling, I
watched the figure until at the corner it turned
out of sight, and a long dark outline on the
grass behind it ran into the fence. The
shadow! Then it was not a ghost. Had the
grave given up its dead? I would see.
At the churchyard the briers tore my face
and clothes, but I plunged deeper when the
shade thickened under the thorn-trees.
There in the corner I stooped to lift the
broken slab of a tomb, but all my strength
would not move it. As I leaned over, bruising
my hands in a vain endeavor to raise it,
my eyes fell for an instant on the stone, and
with a start I turned quickly and ran to the
church; then I stopped-the narrow fissure
that cut zigzag across the slab on the tomb
was filled with green moss, and this
window was nailed up, and hung full of heavy
cobwebs.
And my instrument?
Suddenly, while I stood there, some substance
in my brain seemed to break up it
was the fetters of monomania which had
bound me since that evening long ago, when,
by the river in the oak-forest, I had heard the
robin trill.
No murder stained my soul: and there,
beside the black waves of insanity through
which I had passed unharmed, I gave praise
to the great Creator praise silent, but intense
as Miriam's song by the sea.
(THE END)